liberty comes together with relief, yet emptiness i guess. sigh. sabbaticals week was plain torture; sorry for the constant rantings/complaints but i really should have chosen my sabbats): gahhh.

actually... the sabbats were generally.. fine, but you know one  just feels like tearing herself apart in that enclosed room. my eyelids threatened to close like every minute. but at least we had some takeaways from those sessions, and fortunately they got better as the week passed.

we've been learning many many new songs in choir. the schedule's very rushed since we have to cram the learning of so many new songs into only limited practices.. so it all comes down to 1 new song per practice. and we need to rehearse for FOA and SYF showcase too.. which are ALL in july so coincidentally. 

from now on, my life will be revolving around choir and studies. 3 times a week of practice in the holidays except the second week, then many, many practices in term3, including the struggling of revision for blocks. my life is so not going to be mundane anymore. what with like, 7 SIAs in the holidays. the stress is not coming to me yet but i hope it comes soon. then i'll have that drive and motivation and i'll be spurred on to complete everything on my checklist. yes yes this june holiday is going to be a productive one. 

really looking forward to heartwarming gatherings eg 601 and RAS and with jerlyn and cass and 205 (if there is).. hopefully they will happen.

i suddenly find my recent posts so lifeless.. i dont know where my inspiration of posting went to. haha i realised i've turned into some lifeless fallen leaf from a tree but i want to be alive again. 

so dear Mr holiday, your job is to wake Amanda Tan up from her deep sleep and make her realise how much more there is to the world, apart from the things she has been concentrating on for a really long time.

i need to go shopping.