missed school today because i felt like the world's hovering a million miles away on top of my head.

and the day before i slept at 905, intending to wake up at 930. but somehow my nervous system never gets in contact with my handphone alarm anymore so i stupidly off-ed my handphone alarm without being alarmed. and jolene called at 10+ and told me to wake up. i said i would but in the end i just went to the toilet to pee, asked my mom where my dad was (as i vaguely remembered) and went back. to. sleep. today morning at 530 i woke up with a start and realised, i've nevr touched anything except half of math ws question 1. then i collapsed back to bed and this determined my fate for today. ahhhhh felt super shitty today.

could only sleep and eat, and though i felt so much like going for choir i couldnt drag my feet for more than the distance from my room to my mom's room which is like, 5m? so yeah.

felt sad being away from school.. it felt so empty and bare. i feel like i missed out on a lot of things; (im the kind who will not feel assured no matter how people assure me)

on a random note, i wanna go shopping. the yearn for it within me as doubled itself... SHOPPINGGG. cant wait for holidays to come. wait, today was the last day of school.. and sabs next week):

not looking forward to sabs AT ALL because firstly, i didnt even choose my sabs and secondly, i got placed into FILM and omg i forgot what the next one is. see, i dont even know about my sabbatical. this sucks big-time. i want a re-sab selection. DANCE but its gone): all because i waited. or hesitated. thats never going to be the case again, i promise myself. sadsad):

sighs. at least there'll be openhouse tomorrow. something different and related to choir(: let the worries of the horrible sabbaticals be gone.