today mrs ang showed us an amazing reaction of an egg being immersed into hydrochloric acid; the whole shell like totally came off. it was gross and the black+white quail egg turned into like, veggie-green and foam. chemistry is simply amazing.

anyway, im at home now, trying to finish a compo called “心灵之窗”before tuition starts and i've owed my tuition teacher this compo for ages hahaha. im so glad block tests are over. no more mugging into late nights and pressing on. okay maybe there's still one whole chunk of SIAs, hw... but we'll all live through it, like we always do(:

got back physics on yesterday. it wasnt like i havent expected it, but i cant believe i was so.. ?! until i forgot to write my name -.- and mrs wong had to search for who the mysterious person is (me) and she told the whole process to the class. but i wasnt paying attention. i just kept looking at those red marks. and i felt horribly.. guilty. and suddenly the taboo-ed words triggered tears and everything just flowed out. i dont know if its just meant to be, but it was just merely 3 marks. three marks. ): omg and its PHYSICSSS. its science. weightage is 1. howhowhow. my report book is going to turn out horrible.
anyhow, im really thankful to those who stood by me. those hugs and encouragements really helped(: i dont know how to feel about this subject now; am i just not meant to do it? managing expectations isnt an easy thing, but zomg im like failing everything; my chinese is like ?! sighs. oh and have i mentioned, i didnt manage to sign up for sabbs in time, so i'll get sorted randomly.

it's really hard to accept that things are just the way they are now. the path ahead is so uncertain, so how? ):

just live through it, just live through it.

tomorrow's chemistry SPA and i've got chinese compo due tomorrow. hopefully i dont break test tubes or be at a total loss of what to do for chem spa and fail it. the best of luck to 304!

to you: you dont have to act differently or hide your supposed satisfaction to me, just because i've gotten so much lower. although it'll definitely feel awkward, please just be natural and be happy for yourself. and i'll be happy for you too.