haha i shall start recounting from... thursday?

yeah. had a short rehearsal with shannon tania and saiying in the morning. solved some loops in that short 2hour rehearsal.. hope everything works accordingly, in 4 days time. haha but we had a good laugh over.. certain unsayable stuff.

after that i had my strangest encounter ever. not going to elaborate much(haha) all i can say was, shannon and i went to KAP and we spent quite an amount of time deciding on our eating location and dwelling there before queuing up. and shannon spilt coke on herself. *winks*

then at night had a conference call with jerlyn and erina. it seemed like years, buddayes! finally had a chance to hear you guys. its been long really.(:

:D

anyway, yesterday was brilliant.

got to choir first thing in the morning, then hanged around in j8 for awhile before heading back to school for fundraising.

it was heartwarming to see that everyone was getting to work at that time and there were no squabbles at all(: sold flowers and 205's unique italian soda; both sold out quite well, i guess! haha all of us went to certain great extents to persuade people to buy, maybe using the method of battering/fluttering our eyelids to some customers (or maybe not!). haha but i guess yuka's cute little distinct voice help in the small little business:D

and we ended the day with $265, highest in 2 days!<3
the day went great, haha but during the debrief we had to clear some unfinished mess before we were released. so typical of us right!:D

yeah so i guess the next and final obstacle in our sec2 lives will be.. choral and drama night.

oh the horror.

it kind of freaks me out to think that on wednesday we would be addressed as the performers. and then it would be "under a single spotlight" for us. getting everything right will mean a thousand times harder than saying it out. 4 days left and i already feel.. nervous, scared and anxious.

omg im starting to go hysterical.. butterflies are starting to fly in my stomach, heart palpitating erratically as seconds pass and actually when we get nearer and nearer to the big day.

is it supposed to be that exaggerated?? i hope not but it is. ughhh.

i should probably go try out sharpay's bloobloobloooAHH thing. okay maybe on that day 205 B can do that(: (okay im desperately trying to stop the hyperventilation.)

actually i shouldnt be worrying, 17 other people are together with me(:
205B, we can do it! yes yes yes we can. <3
its the last shot, make it count!

okay enough of the nonsense. i think im going nuts.

AH. okay.

anyway, jerlyn erina cassandra if you guys are seeing this, hope you guys come okay!

wed (14th nov)
730pm at NYGH!
(:

xxx

on another note, here's the few dedications that i either promised, or wanted to do for so long but didnt have a chance to get onto it.

to E and J,
okay so firstly sincere apologies to you guys to keep yall waiting. according to jerlyn you guys placed my blog under surveillence 24/7. sorry..
anyway, actually it isnt much of a surprise as to what you guys are going through.. cos we have once gone through the same exact stages you guys are currently passing, looks like it. i guess thats the reason why i empathise with you guys, at least i hope im not sidetracking. i know the pain and anxiety.. the fear and anger are all beyond words. its difficult to describe all those mixed emotions you feel right...? im sorry to hear about whats happening over on your side, but i really do understand. in same way or another, its the similar situation that occurred to us. but you know what? at the end of the end of the day, whats left in those fond memories of yours would be the pictures of all 54 of you going through so much together, and no doubt these times would keep playing in your head.
i know that for now there isnt much to help improve the disaster.. but before you know it it'll get better(: just continue having faith in yourselves, because of what you are, because of your passion and because of her. dont ever give up, cos if you guys dont care, who else will?
although i know i cant really help much.. i wish you guys the best okay. i'll always be here if you need me<3

to 2 of you:
haha i think this may come as a surprise to you two, but i've been trying to convey this message to you.. but i just cannot find the right words. but now i'll try.
i guess i just started feeling the decrease of passion i have for that certain something, although it maybe quite different from your certain specific 'something'. i feel quite sad to hear that you dont feel like trying anymore, after several failed attempts of.. trying to do well. but no matter what it isnt other people that matter, its yourself. it doesnt mean that you arent good enough and do not have enough qualifications to do better or at least up to your standard when other people look you down..
you know, i think its quite difficult to stand in your shoes, and try to feel the way you actually do, cos i think me and you two are in two different worlds. but one thing for sure, since you've joined your certain something, the best you can do is to be committed to it, since you chose it and you must have a good reason for doing so. dont let that passion of yours fade away okay..? its not worth it. make those times struggling under the hot sun count.
believe in yourselves, and know that i have absolute faith in you guys!<3

love, me.