life's been SUPER hectic lately. only had approximately 4 hours of sleep each these nights.

its already enough, i dont need anything else on my mind.
probably most people would view me as the cause of the effect, and its not that i dont care, if i do care i'll burst someday. the intensity of negative feelings has increased steadily recently i must say, so much that i dont know what i did wrong.
its not like im not in any fault, but at least, please dont treat me like an invisible wall. i can sense every tinge of meaning hidden behind every loud spoken word, and maybe i've got it all wrong, but trying everything makes everything seem worse, and not doing anything isnt a way out.

nothing i say or do will help anything now, because all i know is that i will get mistaken for doing the wrong thing when all i want.. is the best.

much has changed within these few weeks.. but you towards me.. that impression will never change; it'll remain the same as before.