GOING MAD.

yes i think im going mad.

i cant believe i've stoned in front of my table for an hour.
cool right?

shall post about malacca trip soon..
and choir was.. enlightening yesterday. rotten eggs. we shall remember that.

it doesnt feel like me.
wait, i dont even know what it feels like to be me.

do i make sense?

PRICELESS.

today has definitely been a meaningful one. be it in conference room B where many revelations were made, or just hanging out with 205ers, even just being in the mac lab..

these all happen for a reason.

maybe im not making sense, but yeah. the leadership sabbatical has definitely made a significant impact on my life. not only on being a leader of course, but on being a better peer, communicator, and most importantly, a better person. its not everyday when you contain those emotions that you have never felt before; and i felt it today, when everyone came out to speak, for the proper official closure.

its really different to me now, the dread when 1130 comes and i have to step into that room.. its a room which holds many meaningful fond memories, where different people with different personalities come together for the same reason, and the same aim.

although they may never see this, but really i wanna thank my team alot. you guys taught me priceless things that can never be taught through textbooks, literature texts and whatnots. but you guys taught me the true meaning of a team. through the mere 5 days.. it isnt any team that forms out of 4 different people from 4 different classes (2/2, 2/3, 2/4, 2/5, haha(: ), but its a team which gives moral support to everyone and anyone in it. menghan, audrie and crystal.. without you guys i wouldnt be what i am today(: love you guys!

so today sabbs ended on a beautiful note. (:

yeah and amazingly term 2 has come to an end.
melaka trip is the next highlight.. it will be a fulfilling trip(:

ADIEU.

sabbaticals week feels like "challenge yourself!" week. e-learning + leadership training..

for e-learning, besides getting the chance to sit in front of an IMAC computer, there isnt really much to rejoice for. except um. of course, stealing sleep!:D i cant believe i slept for 20 minutes today during the lesson itself, when we were supposed to be doing some chinese compre >< hahaha.

for leadership training.. its quite stressful in there, with all those intense competition and stuff, but its quite fun, with my team members.(: i think tomorrow its my turn to become the facilitator; really really hope i dont screw up!

yeah, today's wednesday. mr chow said look forward to friday when its wednesday. 2 more days to endure, and 4 days to malacca trip(: yay, excited!

xxx

today after school, rosanne jessie and van dragged me to island creamery. my growling stomach played a part too, so yeah we went there. and on the way, they were talking about how my ancestors were PIGS.>< goodness see the big brain damage jolene did to vanessa. im NOT a pig okay. neither do i look like one, so no one from my family even resembles a pig, okay? heh, if thats true i'll be able to oink with the pigs=.="

devoured the mudpie with rosanne, and yeah thats basically it. van jess and rosanne spent their time admiring other people's photos on the wall.. so about 345 - 4, we headed home.

i guess that pretty much sums up today.

ASOV; THE END.

yes finally its over.

somehow the harsh reality that ASOV's over just came to me like some typhoon.

the two nights that we've been working so hard for, that we've been worrying about, that we've been prioritizing over other things.. they just went pass in a blink. yesterday's been a magical night, though the first half certainly was a little disappointing. but the second half should have covered it up, right?

yeah, hope we left an everlasting impression on the audience, no matter what the outcome was, because we really did sing our hearts out and you can count on that(:

this being possibly the last concert we'll be singing together as a whole choir in 2008.. really hope that time could turn back and we could be making music together with our passion and love for choir once again.


on a random note, hearing st nicks sing made me think about the old times, when cass jer erina and i were singing together. times have changed, so much. really hope we can go back to the old times and sing in one choir again. miss you guys!

i'll never ever forget 080508 and 160508 in my whole life, just simply because these two days were spent with NYC, the love of the love.


oh and needless to mention, loyee, you rocked the house down yesterday. with your enthusiastic conducting and the strong faith and determination you evoked into the choir.. really, im very proud of you. and im sure many others are too. oh goosh i can remember shannon's face in awe very distinctly when you sang solo for tambourin. haha you rock man!<3

and leting.. it really was an indescribable feeling to stand beside you and sing our hearts out together. like i said, how you make people feel relaxed and warm when you sing your haiku out.. if im touched by how you say it and what you say, then im sure you touched and wow the audience in many ways too. yay, keep up the good work, and continue having the faith okay? <3

thanks to everyone who came to support.. 205ers, evie jolene shannon junqi jianing van chuan yixuan joling marie celeste tania and kahmun... really, without you guys there i wouldnt have that much fun. and christine and your friend too.. thanks for coming<3 not to forget, those who supported me morally too(:

random photo taken with wenjing and leting for memory in the LT!


NYC, I LOVE YOU!

xxx



probably apologising wouldnt be the exact or even the right thing to do.. perhaps you didnt know you mean a lot to me too, if not i wouldnt even be feeling so strongly about it. i really dont know what happened and why it turned out this way.. but really, no matter what happens, you've been this special friend that i treasure, love and cherish a lot, and will always be.<3

BYPASS.

i pretty much cannot explain and understand myself these days.. and i just feel like blending into the walls right now.

im sorry.

SATISFACTION.

friday

slack days arent meant to be slackish, because normally they are the busiest for me. chionged lots after school (fortunately theres no choir) and chionged to loyee's after that. had a great time there.. just laughing over plain nothings and acting retarded especially in front of her laptop. haha. so much for the good times. :D

then proceeded to VCH.

i tell you, voices in flight was plain AWESOME.

especially the spicing hot guys who sang the two pop songs. (and omg, the beatboxing!) seeing our seniors (jac, jiamin, melgoh, yichan, yangzi...) sing their hearts out on stage.. it was heartwarming.

i wonder if our second and last concert this coming friday will evoke this same satisfactory feeling into everyone's hearts. i hope it will(:

xxx

today.. was indescribable.
even though it was a day when there are loads to do but we can only prioritize.(:

WONDERMENT.

today's concert was... definitely much better than what all of us expected.

the way all of us stood on stage singing our hearts out, hoping for the best, not wanting to let ms lim, the choir and ourselves down... yeah i guess it was much of a success(:

the process was very rushed though. had a short nap, followed by a rushed dinner, and huge makeover sessions.

hope that we'll do better on the 16th!

i <3 you, NYC!

xxx

am i thinking too much into it?

WHEN THINGS SEEM A MILLIOM MILES AWAY.

having a quite unproductive LA lesson now... cos the internet isnt working that well and then theres the stuopid invasion of jolene ong!!! haha the previous post was quite crap. but i shall leave it there for ME to laugh.:D

choir concert is in less than 12 hours time... but yet theres no sense of urgency yet. ahhh i shall go now because i need to go now. :(

jiayou NYC! we can do it!!!!!!!

hello! i someone sitting beside amanda tan now(: in close view, she totally lookslike....a PIGGY! :D and she became so BEAUTIFUL wearing contacts! the eye so enormous one....and she feels shy>< and she jus smack my head D:audrey is at some biantai blogger website where there is so many biantai woman.... ok so today this little girl of this blog is going to have her concert at the SIEW MAY AUDITORIUM. lets wish her all the best! wheeeeee ok shall end here already. i see evie posting. aiyah its quite obvoious who i will be so byebye!

MANDY THE PIGGY JIAYOUS!:D

-the i dont know who

AS HOPES COME RUSHING BACK.

had a great day out with the choristers yesterday.. even after the gruelling 4 hour practice of the whole concert! oh and leting and i just discovered that adieu was part of the programme. LOL. nevermind, it was fun and worth it anyway, because its CHOIR(:

then after that loyee leting wenjing ruimin and i headed towards to outram in a taxi. squeezed like mad, the four of them. i had my own little territory in front(: reached the mrt and then went to raffles city for lunch, at mos burger. the first official place where the choristers had dinner at before the first concert we went to at VCH.. remember? it definitely brings back many fond memories!

cabbed to some place in outram for their gown fitting, and spent quite sometime in that small little factory. went back to school, or rather, railmall, to meet someone. slept throughout the whole bus ride and i promise i didnt drool, i just thought i did okay. and somewhere in the middle of the bus trip, wenjing left, while i was sleeping soundly.): haha, so yeah then went to subway to wait for that special someone.

sorry, leting if i acted like a total idiot, and asked irrational stuff.>< i have never rocked at this kinda stuff anyway, but i did try my best.. even though my best sucked? but im sure loyee did help.. in many ways. eeks.
in any other way, hope things will work out fine between you two.

went to loyee's house after that. for around 15 minutes, but it seemed like 1 second. really love her house, so cosy and just very loyee-ish. :D nothing like what you describe as; long curtains... i thought you were living in a temple-like apartment. chatted for awhile.. then went off. thanks loyee for your special advice in everything.. because they all really help(:

thanks leting, loyee, wenjing and ruimin for making yesterday a very special day.<3

at night.. got most of my feelings sorted out.

living without you.. the world would be an inferno. so you know, letting you go wouldnt be that easy, and i wont ever do that, mark my word.
its cos you are you, who mean the world to me.
<#

xxx

countdown to 8th may concert: 4days.

gogogo, NYC!

CONTRADICTIONS.

never would have thought that i could survive today..
but in the end i did(:

met jolene in the canteen first thing in the morning, to confirm our class table. but no one knew where our class table was, so we just booked some random table. xD
i guess choir exhibition and class breakfast went quite smoothly. oh and i didnt know 205's class breakfast was on 020508. how cool is that? haha.
duty wasnt as hard as it seemed too, just walked around. and the seniors were nice, so not much of a worry, i think? then after school it was NAPFA. AAABC. freaked out for SBJ, have no idea why. stomachache suddenly came to conquer my stomach.. so wasted quite sometime before taking the real SBJ.

at least all the horrors were over.

and surprisingly, ms lim was in a good mood today.(:
when i stepped into the auditorium, it wasnt the tensed atmosphere that i used to feel.. nowadays. instead, past memories of happy singing and joking with ms lim relivened, when the first thing i heard was ms lim saying, "choir, dont do this.." in a jokingly "ms lim" manner. i could have stopped in my tracks to check whether i was dreaming.. because it was too good to be true. hehe but yeah it totally was.. so choir rehearsal in the audi went very smoothly.

yeah i hope this continues for tomorrow pracs and the subsequent practices.. and finally the concerts! :D

mhm i guess this sums up today.

how was yours?