MORE THAN AN EVERYDAY HUMDRUM.

today was quite eventful.

cleared stuff today, quite glad of it(:

then, in chronological order, we had NSW science, volleyball surfing assessment, music presentation, math quiz and then the debate talk.
and last for all, had choir.

had gown fitting today.. and it felt terribly weird to be.. barely covered up. haha that sounds super wrong. but i guess it looked quite presentable.

so, csm tomorrow together with choir fundraising and practice, then bio report meeting with evie after that. thursday... not sure of the schedule. and friday, aha, the most hectic day of the week. duty, NAPFA (D;), choir, exhibition item...

concert's just 9days away. and really during practice today, the atmosphere was very tensed. i really hope there wont be anymore songs taken out by ms lim.. cos we really need them.

we can make it right, nyc?

yes we can. and we will.

GRIPPING TIGHT.

right now i feel quite emotionless.

things come by in a flash, some which leave a great impression on you, be it negatively or positively, while others just plainly "walk" past you simply like yet another stranger.

things now seem harder to control, and to take charge of. but i guess its the choice, the choice of gripping tight on the chosen things you want to look out more for out of the many. sometimes i doubt whether i made the right choices, and when i assure myself that they're right, things screw up and this just makes matters worse.

so its just kind of an on and off thing.

does anyone else feel the same?

ABSENCE MAKES THE HEART GROW FONDER.

havent been updating as much nowadays... lack of things to talk about, i suppose?

i wouldnt categorize myself under the "sick" category.. cos theres really nothing much wrong with me. just felt nauseous at 2am and puked on my bed. thereafter sharp stomachaches followed and so i had to stay in bed. wanted to get back to school for choir.. and for meeting people, but mother didnt allow, so here am i, incubating at home all day long.

hmm, i guess i missed out on a lot today. ):

anyway, thanks people for caring(: im feeling loads better already!

just one day of longing produced so much of a heartache..

knew you were impt, but didnt know you were THAT impt to me.
clutching every chance i have to thank you, THANK YOU FOR APPEARING IN MY LIFE<3

THE RAINBOW AFTER THE STORM.

this week has gone by in a flash, too fast for me to accept it.

nevertheless, there are loads taken off my mind.

for instance, the horrors of OM. the graded performance went quite steadily well, surprisingly. even after the backdrops that scared us, and the lack of practice.
i love you guys, OM team(:

and..

to YOU: sorry for misunderstanding you today. it was very silly to have thought of such senseless things, but that somehow made me realise how important you are to me... <3
& YOU: thanks for caring. although it may seem worthless to care about such an oversensitive being like me. things wouldnt have been better, if you werent there. <3
&& YOU: many things have happened over such a short period of time, at one point of time which i almost gave up. thankfully i didnt, because in actual fact, i really cant. other things dont matter much to me anymore; cos whats most important is you. and i really hope after all these, there wont be any sense of restriction, or an appearance of a barrier. i believe in us.. i truly do<#

xxx

today was pretty amusing. PCCG the first lesson (yes, proposal approved(: ), then came drama. it was hilarious, really. recess, followed by geography then chinese and BOM meeting. history came next, when most of us got too bored we started to spazz and get high randomly. which led to the spastic home econs lesson.

shannon the doctor, me the patient, jianing and jolene the dramatic nurses.

plain amusing. amusing even to ourselves.

haha i cant really remember the details, i can only remember.. menopause =.="
yes, dont ask more:D

choir practice, then nymd concert tomorrow.

all the best to you, r&s!

and all the best to you mandy, for making the weekend a meaningful one.

the unbreakable bond.

EMULOUSNESS.

will things change for the worst?
brrrrrrrr i dont wanna know.

LET GO.

yesterday had been a relatively good one.

had 1h of free time cos' cikgu hanim had a meeting, crapped around in the sectional room during music (where we were trying so hard to blast the keyboard with gritting teeth), had gong han (which turned out pretty okay, although im 60% bound to fail), baked apple crumbles for home econs and did some patrick thing during drama.

choir was a BLAST. cos we were really blasting. the sop 2s, that is. we sang COMOCOMPONGO with only six people. it was really worrying, but at least we made it through(: and the fact that leting was there helped. it made everything more worthwhile and seem better when there werent any SL to take us during sectionals.

after choir, leting, loyee,wenjing and i sat down at the usual spot (the swing!) to chat, to take a sneak peek at the netballers, and basically.. to swing. yeah. haha crapped alot. about all sorts of stuff under the sun. just for that moment, i felt really free, as if nothing is attached to me to prevent me flying. haha, and then we did something different. walked / ran around the track, still talking, then slid into the singing mode. sang comocompongo and did those hilarious actions, and then blasted the SCHOOL SONG while marching. we would really be a laughing stock if anyone ELSE saw us. haha but it was really fun.

xxx

today i heard from wanglaoshi that all our belongings under the tables were put at the side ledge and back table. and justina justified that. sorry 205ers, this possibility has never occurred to me. should have used up at least more brain juice about this. im so sorry><

INEFFABLE TEARS OF PASSION.

maybe its just me; but have i become more vulnerable to tears?

school has been surprisingly an increasing significance, after the many ups and downs in school life.

choir practice today was a simply horrifying experience. what with the pathetic number of FIVE sec2s for the first half an hour. it would have been four if jiahui didnt sacrifice her throat well-being to make the sec 2 batch seem a little better, and i really appreciate it, thanks(:
yeah and so we screwed up most of the warmups, as expected. blasted off like nobody's business, but i still could feel my voice stuck all the way back in my throat.
and after that we sang through the first half programme of the concert.

what ms lim said was quite true; we arent feeling the sense of urgency yet. the concert's exactly 30 days away, and we havent mastered any song yet plus we've still a few other songs to start learning. the situation looks horrible, but i hope like what mr mac said, the concert'll be fine, it'll be fine.

frankly speaking i havent felt so strongly about choir before. maybe my passion for it has been growing unknowingly. there are too many maybes to list, but one thing for sure, i have never felt that ive got this huge responsibility in choir, even as a normal chorister.
and most importantly, ive learnt how to appreciate and not take things for granted. for instance, ms lim. and just many other choristers whom ive just probably been treating as just a singing company. i wonder what i would be like now if there isnt leting, cos i was at a terrible loss today with the absence of her.
and really the sweetest things she said really spurred me on to go over that high G in comotu. sorry and thanks<3

now i know why people cry for choir.

i guess.. this is the true passion anyone can ever have for anything important to them.(:

but still, i know we can do it. because we're NYC. yeah, we will. JIAYOU!<3

xxx

there are as usual many things to look forward and dread for the rest of the week. hopefully i'll be able to pull through these torrents of stress.
after thursday, we'll be free from the death clutches of OM, free to be at liberty at last. gong1wen2 on friday, LA graded assignment on thursday, choir prac on friday and next tuesday.. i'll just treat them as distractions from death, like what mr chow said today.

life seems unbearable now.. but somehow later if i look back, i know it isnt as bad as it seems. so to everyone out there (including myself!) CONTINUE HAVING FAITH.

there isnt such a thing called game over in a game of true friendship, just counters for you patch things back.
im happy for you<3

BITTER SWEET MEMORIES.

haha, finally changed the font to a bigger sized one. is it really that difficult to catch whats written before? :/

this weekend is quite a surprise. had extra choir practice yesterday, where we blasted our heads off because of the pathetic number of people present. and sop 2 didnt have a single SL, so chiling took us. and we sorta mastered kotoba. (: sang through the first half songs, and comotu. sec2s are going to learn como and mamoru. difficult but nice. :D
leting, GET WELL SOON! please do, so that i dont have to blast the high G for comotu alone tomorrow morning.. and i somehow feel that singing telepathy between both of us when we sing.

eg. *look at each other* *smile* *nod head* *BLAST*

i suppose thats a good thing.. right? (:

haha, got home and realised both tuitions got cancelled.. so spent the afternoon on the comp.. and on the phone with VIP!(: i never realised i could narrate POSTS. so hilarious till the extent tears are produced from my laughter..? hahaha. crapped about lotsa crap.

oh and another thing, during dinner i had my first taste of BEER in my whole entire life. it was exhilarating, i suppose. the first taste of it literally threatened my eyes to dislocate from its sockets. and it was definitely more effective than redbull! cos even though i felt drunk, i felt high. not that i make sense.. but yeah(:

came back home and found that i couldnt do anything, so talked on the phone again with VIP! i think we didnt take notice of the time.. so by the time we hung up it was 1+am. two long long phone marathons in a day. thats uber cool. HAHA. its just the indescribable heartwarming feeling when you can just spend your time away chatting about anything under the sun with someone you love <3

yeah! so i just finished my tuition and heard jolene's story on her FANTASTIC dream. unbelievable. hahaha. really look forward to next week due to some unspeakable reasons.. but a start of a new week also means the beginning of truckloads of stress setting into your mind again.

ah, its okay, cos there're wonderful people and things to keep me going(:

WHEN THINGS TAKE AN UNEXPECTED TURN.

im totally deadbeat now; had a really tiring day.
at least music test's over. but like how every ending marks a new beginning, we've got a new music project on hand. how fascinating!

grah okay. got quite a number of surprises today.

lost and retrieved my poor watch. during PE, i carelessly left it at the edge of the netball court at the canteen. and by the time i went back to get it when PE ended, it was gone. during recess, jolene shannon evie jianing van and junqi helped to search for it, but to no avail. by that time, the second bell already rung, and our ears were at stake (for mr fang's constant naggings!!!) if we were late. but somehow, jolene shannon junqi and van persisted on going to the GO to enquire about the watch. and practically forced evie jianing and i to go up first, since i had to scream the qi li and xing li thing, no matter how much i stopped them from doing so.

im really touched by what evie said, "These are what you called true friends."

and thats what i had the sudden deeper understanding of what true friends really meant. you guys, thanks for sacrificing your time and effort just to find that poor soul of a watch for me. really appreciate your help to the fullest(:

in the end, i found the watch in the GO, before choir. =.="

secondly, i lost my wallet in the bus on the way home. was merrily chatting with loyee, and suddenly realised my wallet was gone. started shuffling madly after loyee went, such that this guy beside me started to move away from me. haha. and apparently, i found that wallet lying on the "floor". what a close shave.
and for some reason, the bus driver thought i was crying and told me not to when i was about to alight the bus. haha.

felt inbalanced today too. i started falling for no particular reason, like when i stood up and fell sideways onto leting, making her fall. what a COOL domino effect. and also almost ran over this sec 1 junior during choir prac (i forgot her name). must be due to the starvation, fatigue and drowiness.

sighs. i think i need sleep!

mystified at my supposedly wrongdoings.