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Friday, February 29, 2008 @ 10:17 PM
leap year day!
"LEAP YEAR DAY".

just realised, that today is a once-in-every-four-years day.
so leting claims i should post and then post on this same day fours years later, when i will be EIGHTEEN. how amazing.

shall start from yesterday, the very-rushed day.
had OM, then went to leting's house and ACS barker. OM was... quite a success i guess, although some things got a little screwed up before the performance, but i think it was okay. its so amazing, to how we've embarked on this tiresome journey and then come all the way to this stage, still hand in hand, binding our hearts and souls together for this project.
OM wasnt only a project, it taught quite a number of things. how much more lovely my friends are, how much they care, how much more responsibility i've to hold, and of course the experience.
i think the most important part is the amount of teamwork we appear to have, both on the inside and outside and also the cooperation. yay, at least our hard work paid off, after those many long hours of consideration on whether or not to this or that, the draining out process of decision making for almost everything, and the late stayovers at many places.
"huka,nuka, HUKANUKA!" i'll never ever forget this. its the step which brought us closer together as a team, with moral support and encouragement.
<3 OM team!

after OM, rushed to leting's house in a taxi. heard there was a huge commotion on some ganghead escaping from jail, and spotted quite a number of policecars on the way to leting's. i must say, leting's house left me aghast; in a way.
of course, it was like any other typical Singaporean's household, but something there was different. i think its the family warmth. it should be:D bathed and drank there, then rushed to ACS barker in sheryin's car.
the concert was sweet, especially when the little kids performed. not too little, but still counted as innocent little ones. looking back, i wonder if i were ever like those 11-12 year olds when i was in rosyth choir. and i did not even have the slightest knowledge that primary and secondary school choir were.. world apart. yeah. and through their performance, leting's words made me feel a strong nostalgia, when i was a primary school kid who didnt have anything much to care. its really.. unbelievable as to how we matured and grew up so fast. it seemed like a long time ago when all we had to do during recess was go to the canteen hand in hand, without having to chiong work. their voices were just really pure, gave out those "children's reality" atmosphere. it was good, really(:
oh, and loyee said that some guy was cute, and i was like. O.O okay, this is completely random, but i really wanted to burst into fits of laughter when she said that. goodness, was she possessed or something?!
haha, sadly the concert came to an abrupt ending. they didnt care about our screams of "encore!" and it only lasted for an hour. left with erina and had a long chat, on the way home.

wasnt exactly a chat, more of an arguement actually. it was really fantastic to talk to someone whom i've never talked to for the past year. it suddenly feels like everythings back to the way they were in primary school. people create wonders, just like you, erina. although you've become a sleepless mugger, which you so sadly made me jealous of.

reached home at around.. 10+ and i was already deadbeat. didnt do any work, which explained the chionging of science ws today.

thankfully, wanglaoshi is our chinese teacher. she rocks, really. to let those without inspiration to finish the zuowen on monday. thank you(: at least this teacher's trying to make an effort to understand us, to understand what we are going through.

hmm, and then we had choir. goofed around, for the first time this year. talked to amandaL about all sorts of nonsensical things, like KPOP.:D (vanessa, you've so got to see this!)

me: "i know! let me tell you the most famous KPOP bands in singapore! *thinks for a while* big junior, super bang..."

before i could finish my sentence, amandaL started to scream silently. its really weird, and we had this super weird convo about figures.
the bone and the refrigerator. hilarious.
amandaL, *shakes head*. ROFL.

and about the talk today..
i think it really helped, in every aspect. to improve the choir, to boost its morale upwards by a million percent. it just felt the way it was last year, when jac jiamin yangzi and people were there. it evidently showed that choir was an important element in most choristers' hearts from their affected moods after choir.
if we did not give a two hoot about choir or only thought of this second home as a playground, we wouldnt have even felt bothered about the state that choir is in. so the talk today gave us freedom to voice out our long hidden views. i just hope that everything will resume back to normal in a GOOD state. i know we can do it! NYC JIAYOU<333

lastly, thank you to everyone who made my day better.

esp jolene, shannon and evie, who bothered to listen and understand.
thanks shannon for being there at the time when i needed someone like you the most, thanks jolene for bothering to talk to me and let me pour them all out to you, thanks evie for letting me hold a stronger faith in God, and in you<3

also, to leting, loyee, wenjing, sheryin, yvonne, who brightened up my mood yesterday.<3

yay, love you guys lots.
its you guys who make my life at its best even at time when its at its worst.<3

Saturday, February 23, 2008 @ 12:03 AM
when everything comes crumbling down
WHEN EVERYTHING COMES CRUMBLING DOWN

had a sudden urge to update, after a long period of being a workoholic.

school's been chaotic, seriously.

so many things to handle, so many things to worry about, so many things to doubt, so many things to calm myself down about, so many things to do.

but, so little time.

thats the way life is, and i just wish the clock will tick slower.
because everything's coming in a rush.

firstly, i find that nowadays im being a super "slow" person.
there'll at least be a "huh?" in a day. and everytime i come back running a stupid errand or something, i realise i missed out on something while i was away. and then i end up getting so blurred up and muddle-headed.
secondly, MANY things have been going on without me being aware of them. like how you usually asked me to go with you to find her? things change a lot, they change very drastically.
and it does not help at all, to find out that people are expecting so much more, that people are hiding so many things from me.
thirdly, it just seems that i dont do anything for OM, which is on task. i have no idea why. but i get really clueless when i stare at those props, those costumes. and i have to rely on others to tell me what to do. its that i like it; i definitely do not like being such a sotong and always asking around for some stupid things or for what i have to do. im sorry, because i feel that i've let my OM team down, by a whole lot.
i can get so irritated i snap at people; i just keep quiet and people think im emo-ing.

be it in the aspect of being in my class, in my OM team, in choir;
im just really really exhausted.
almost blew my top off; like a volcano today. and concurrently it was geography. felt that the immense heat was unbearable, so much that the "magma" threatened to escape through my eyes.

worse still, i highly doubt i'll pass chem SPA. today i was totally clueless about what to do, since i have never once flipped or even glanced through those science notes.

another thing, i heard that my group didnt get in to OM singapore. by right, it wasnt supposed to have a great impact. after all, the main thing was the judging, the grading.

it may seem a little exaggerated, but i think nothing's going right. everything's going so haywired although in the end it seems that it isnt that bad. im sure i'll regret saying all these sooner or later, but right now i just feel like going to sleep and never wake up, ever again.

audrey, happy birthday!

Saturday, February 16, 2008 @ 11:18 PM
the love that aggravate the matter.
THE LOVE THAT AGGRAVATE THE MATTER.

everyone, happy belated vday.

although im 2 days late. ): have been really busy.
this year's vday had been a very memorable one, since this is the first ever time i celebrate it.

esp when jojo and i had a midnight call, for over 20 minutes. funfunfun.:D

anyway, in school, love was in the air. people were giving out presents, mostly chocolates. i gave out 20 roses to 20 people(: although they may wither and die, i hope that its soul stays with you guys forever, like how mine stays with you!
and never to forget, thanks to everyone who gave me the sweet scented cookies, keychains, sweets and more. :D

xxx

this is a random corner;
thanks JOLENE ONG for talking and crapping with me, it really made things better<3

Tuesday, February 12, 2008 @ 11:56 PM
and when fatigue extinguishes your soul.
AND WHEN FATIGUE EXTINGUISHES YOUR SOUL.

let's see, i havent updated for five days. while jerlyn has been updating hers like theres no tomorrow.

well, i guess its the workload. its DEFINITELY the workload.

homework, you cause too much sleep deprivation, too much trouble, too much pain and misery, too much stress, too much hatred.

ah well. so much for that.

CNY's been great, i think. its been an amazing get together with all my relatives, where we stayed over at one's house for over 10 hours, leaving only usually after 3am. that explains the dark eye rings i possess, and the recent chionging of homework, which could never have existed. aha, but i guess it was worth it, what with all my recap on gamblings, like blackjack(!!), taitee, mahjong, showhand, and other what they call illegal games, with great people.

BUT. school killed the festive mood. everybody has been sleeping with their eyes open for the past week; not a surprise. hah.

and today, choir was.. unbelievably a let down. its just really rare that i come to choir with a huge smile on my face, awaiting laughter and more laughter with people who share the same passion. it isnt our fault, but i think its just the down-time. im sure that the mess will be cleaned up sooner or later, and nanyang will continue to shine, better than ever. so all hail and jiayous to NYC!(:

amongst the ocean of stress, at least theres something to look forward to: valentine's day in 23 hours and 44 minutes time(:

Thursday, February 07, 2008 @ 1:56 AM
and when good things come to an end.
AND WHEN GOOD THINGS COME TO AN END.

firstly,

happy birthday rebekah!<3

its super late, i know! haha. hope you had a very happy 15th birthday yesterday! you've been a great sl and everything. just dont look down on yourself and have more confidence kay! my first impression of you was that you were a jumping shrimp, because you always ask people to SMILE and GET HIGH. thanks for everything! <3
xxx

today was the CNY celebration. everything came in a rush, so there wasnt any time to stop and hesitate. choir was a blast.. in the end. yup. somehow, what leting said made me realise that, it really is very natural for our batch to sway with the music and most importantly, smile. theres no need for reminders on smiling already, which is good, i suppose?:D

ah well, we camwhored quite a lot. here are some; the rest are at loyee's.

youming with her piglet that she gave to rebekah(:
the big tweety and rebekah! plus i think a guest appearance by the piglet!
group photo!
wenjing, charmaine, leting, sheryin!
have a nice CNY, everyone!
like no other.

Monday, February 04, 2008 @ 7:12 PM
with deepest sympathy.
WITH DEEPEST SYMPATHY.




today, nothing very much has happened, except that meeting up with jerlyn and jolene's cookies brightened up my day(:


the cookies that sailed the seven seas with me. yummy yum yum:D


doesnt jolene just resemble a mouse? :D

its just somehow pointless to say these, because i'll doubt you'll ever come read this in this difficult period. anyhow, both of us hope that you can stand strong and almighty, though hard as it seems. we're really saddened by the fact that we cant do anything to help, but we hope that you'll brave through this entire storm. yes you have been really brave, to have endured the whole tiresome and arduous journey of anxiety; i couldnt have been like that if i were in your plight. all we hope for is for you to continue to stay strong. theres nothing much we can do now, but if you ever ever need any form of help or a listening ear, we're available 24/7, just for you. we love you so much, that we'll come to your call anytime, anywhere. take care, my best friend<3

Sunday, February 03, 2008 @ 1:01 AM
UNEXPECTED THINGS HAPPEN.
UNEXPECTED THINGS HAPPEN.

today.. had been a long day.
the aftermath of having sleep deprivations. anyway, yesterday i wasted my whole friday evening in my mom's office cos instead of buying new year clothes, my cousin dropped by and they had this really long talk, where i got LEFT OUT and had to stay outside do my homework. and minutes and hours ticked away. sighs. but after that, we went to din tai fung for dinner at around 9, when i was so hungry i could almost eat my hands up.

and today, i woke up at 6 and toppled back to bed again. i lost track of time somehow, and DREAMT of samantha driving a car with me melissa and i think ethel or something in it. its really hilarious. haha, i must have been thinking about choir too much. then had some tummyache and i got delayed by the stupid masses of cars on the road, so i only managed to reach school at about 945. helped with the baking of cookies, then went to 205 to help with the CNY decos, and lastly went back to choir again. left school at 1215, slept on the bus, then reached home at 115, where i rushed like a madcow to get ready for tuition which started at 130.

rushing in 15 min = skipping lunch
when i finished my tuition, i got overwhelmed with fatigue, so much that the moment i sat on the sofa, i was snoring my head off. up to 6. so there goes my lunch. brrr. at about 7 my family went to parkway, where i met sam (somehow, she was going there too.) and we went to hunt for someone's birthday present, staying in some shop for almost half an hour. or was it more than that? aha. and this really funny thing happened. i was somehow trying to get that huge soft toy down, and i created some domino effect. i only touched the paw of that soft toy, and then it contacted the others and the whole row of soft toys came toppling down on our heads, like rain. and we were somehow engulfed in the midst of falling toys. IT WAS SO HILARIOUS; i think lots of ppl were staring at us. we got away with it, actually its me. hahaha! after we finally got the present, i gave sam the free gift, because im nice.

wait, did i actually say that?

XD aha. then we parted, and my family went on shopping marathons. i think we spent like more than $5o0 today. omgosh. we practically grabbed every nice-looking tee or bottom that we see, so its grab and take. we ended up lugging everything home. no, actually we went to this coffeeshop before we went home, where we actually JOKED about each other's tongues. its quite unbelievable; since when can we joke together, and actually spend quality time?! anyway, it was really a whale of a time.
here are some really crazy pictures:
my brother really resembles a snake.
and he has a triangular head. people say people with triangular heads are smart, but in his case..
and i cant believe this is my mom. :O
haha, and before i go to bed, here are some really random pictures, some outdated, and some recent ones.
THE RANDOM CORNER;
jianing during drama!
i think this was a candid shot by rosanne..
home econs peanut cookies:D surprisingly, it went out really well. xingying and i were totally exhilarated by our efficiency, which was really rare.(: and undoubtedly, they tasted freakinggg delicious:D
this is outdated. it was last week i think, when shannon jolene and i were on the mrt on the way to kembangan. the comparison of three hands.
blurr shannon.
um, sweet jojo jolene?!
during chem prac. pretty rosanne with her pretty mixture.
the pretty mixtureS. and i totally was so frustrated with myself for not being able to make a similar mixture. i suck at chem!
the cookies we baked for choir(:
haha, thats all!
goodnight, all.
im so sorry to have heard about that.. it was really unexpected. at a time like this, i dont really know what to do and how you feel, but i really hope that you'll be the same old you again when the matter blows over, no matter how much pain you've gone through. i'll pray to God, pray for you. although you may never see this, i just wanna let you know, i'll always stay by your side, regardless of the proximity between us.
God bless you and your family. <3
please allow a miracle to happen.

Saturday, February 02, 2008 @ 12:13 AM
loss for words.
LOSS FOR WORDS.

okay, so apparently, this is one of the few times when i feel a loss for words.

dont know what to say, to do, to feel.

im just brain dead today, so brain dead till i could start laughing for nothing, and sigh for more than 10 times consecutively.
i think its the lack of sleep. sad.

anyway, todays been a fairly.. _____ day. fill in the blank; im indifferent.
choir's been bad today, though, what with the sucking attendance and just the quality of voices. sighs. i expected everyone to be high in choir today, but my high spirits dashed out of my head the moment i entered the LT with the gloomy atmosphere.

frankly speaking, i've been trying to make myself happy, because for no absolute reason, mental breakdowns can come occurring to me anytime, anywhere; just hope i get my focus, my happiness, and my smile back.

right now, i just need more sleep, understanding, love and care.

thanks, my dears<3

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