*things moving too fast; like a whirlwind.

you know?

sometimes there are really dreadful things in life, which you regret so much, for giving your all for them, trying your very best so that they can turn out the way you wanted. however, the results are always unexpected twists.

thats why, my expectations of everything have gone so low, its just really unnatural, but inevitable.

really, cos times when i can just let go and be myself... are just really limited.
and sometimes, i just ask myself, "is that what you really want?"

but i cant hear the inside me.

i dont know why, but i think im hiding the truth.. the truth that i dont know who i am, not anymore.

and unfortunately, some joy had been fake, it just seems like a perfect dream. because joy can just be shattered into a million pieces with a single word, a sentence, with people's actions, people's differing attitude towards different people and yeah.. sadly, just favouritism.

so sometimes people's sudden changes just make me lose my way.


how sad.