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Monday, December 03, 2007 @ 7:59 PM
031207
firstly, i wanna call today a memorable day.

031207♥

many meaningful things happened today, although they're quite the littlest thingums on earth(: i just feel thankful at least i do have the chance to feel what i felt, and have the chance to feel nostalgic about today in future(im confident i will)

choir practice was as per normal today, except we had to do some stupid chinese song, which turned our brains inside up after cracking them with all those weird streaks made into an incomprehensible chinese character. brrr. we finished it up though, quite the ny 风格!♥ and then rebekah seemed quite extraodinary today. her eyes were almost flipping into double eyelids ones. its like she gave out that radiating power which somehow hypnotises people. (quite exaggerating eh?) she said she was suffering from an insect bite, which was quite bad, judging from the white thingo that appears out of it. hope you're okay rebekah! rest well and get well soon(:♥

haha well. then we (youming, wenjing, loyee, leting darling and me) somehow bounced down the steps while chatting towards POP. and we had this... really... meaningful chat i guess. it somehow changes topic so suddenly it came to a point when wenjing leting and i confronted her what we have been wanting to tel her for quite sometime.
well, i guess i didnt really manage to say much during that certain period of time when they were all discussing... cos i really cant put my thoughts into words. i feel im turning into a devil to have such gruesome thoughts.
favouritism... i agree to the fullest with leting when she said it was inevitable.. but somehow it really turns out to the extreme. you cant just see it, you feel it. and i think thats the worst part. feeling all the unfairness in the world, pondering relentlessly about what makes other people different from you, and finally resulting to you hating yourself about who you are, and trying to change yourself to such disgusting extent that you scare people off. i dont exactly think i felt this way; but if my juniors next year ever confide in me about favouritism, i will know how they feel. i wont exactly permit myself to be a 100% sure i'll not practice favouritism next year, though how much i despise the feeling of having juniors, but i'll try to be impartial. cos i know feeling like you're an odd egg out of the whole world is a horrible one.

but it's quite heartwarming and its definitely a relief somehow to hear that loyee understands. it's one in a million of seniors who understand how other juniors feel. thats quite special and amazing of her.<3 i gues thats why many people look up to her, as a senior and a friend.

and i think leting, thats one of our main reasons to have that inexplicable respect towards her. the great virtue she has of understanding, and even bothering to listen, not pushing the subject away, but clearing our doubts as well as reassuring us. haha. im really sorry if i've annoyed you with all the mean "characteristics" of me, but it's just me right? haha. its most fortunate that i have such a friend like you whom i'm able to confide in without having to make any white lies, you know, i can just go on blabbering and blabbering to you non-stop. it's just... really unusual that i can make this complete connection with a person and tell you EVERYTHING with all my heart, thats why. darling doesnt come out from my mouth without a reason, you know(:

yeah, and just now, i have been spastic-ing with amanda tan. and she gave me a great insight on english songs, while i preached to her about se7en non-stop. what i find most surprising is the fact that she shares the same sentiments with bout 7. LOL. haha. <3

these little things just totally make my day.

031207 is complete with love<3

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