*purely dedications/-
it really is the last day of 2007, isnt it?
despite how much i want 2007 to never end, its mandatory that 2007 end. so well, heres the dedications.
starting with NYCHORISTERS!
leting/ darling more like it. i dont know how to thank you, cos you brought infinite joy in my life. like really. i still remember the first time we talked. you were really cute when you said "eh, this song very difficult right?" i cant remember whats the song, but i felt like you were reading my thoughts out, so i was really taken back until i only could manage a simple nod. thats the start of our affinity i guess? really, you're one of the really few people that i can actually be myself with, and fret over anything. its usually one topic, you say this, i nod, i say that, you nod. so its just, like a link between thoughts, and its just a normal thing when you say out what my heart thinks. or vice versa. the words that comes out of my mouth just flow like a melody, naturally. yeah. really, you're a special friend, one of a kind. you're just the kind who bothers to listen to others' thoughts, just basically being a listening ear to their problems. and i cant thank you enough for all the funny kind thoughtful stuff you did for me. and thats inclusive of all the advice. and not to miss out, those wonderful fantabulous memories we shared, anytime, anywhere. by being yourself, i think im starting to find out who i really am. so, it really is a blessing to laugh my heart out or weep like a baby with you. conclusion is, you mean more than a whole lot to me. i really mean it. from deep down. i love you, darling!
youming/ although you may never see this, theres still your part!:D squeaky nonsensical batchmate plus 2 years of primary school friends. at first i thought no one i knew was going to join choir, and theres surprisingly you! theres loads of things we did together, like sharing the same earpiece to a phone and talking about loads of crap, which sometimes got us into loads of embarrassment. haha! anyway, thanks for everything. like making presents, offering help at any time of the day, and so much more. your nonsense add a whole pile to my laughter, and really, thats unbelievable, cos i dont normally get that high, or do i? oh well. i dont know, but the fact that you're in alto and im in sop doesnt make much of a difference, cos we exchange glances and pull stupid faces to each other frequently and secretly right? :D haha. theres just so much memories altogether i will never forget, be it good or bad. really! love ya!
loyee/ nutty but interesting and nice senior. even though it had been less than two months, its quite a big improvement, after all, we were mere strangers for 5/6 of this whole year, like you said. its simply unsayable. you arent just a senior to me, but a friend. a friend whom i can pour my woes to. its quite heartwarming to have this privelege to have a friend like you, loyee. cos you bother to care too. as both a friend and a senior. and thats really nice(: i dont really know how to express my heartfelt gratitude to you, but just know it exist! thanks for truly being yourself, cos thats what i appreciate the most. cheers for 2008 and for being a sc for nyc. you know we're supporting you all the way. gambateh! you know you rock! i love you<3
amanda/ another interesting person, who claims shes anti-social. haha. i dont think you are, at least when you joke like a retard. i guess it comes with the same name, but its incredulous to think we're thinking of the same thing, and speak the same thing like most of the time. so. its quite an affinity yeah? :D well, thanks for being there when im down and so on. really, i feel tons better after i speak out. and just scream. whatever, you know the msn me;D but i think we're just interconnected, the way amandas do(: love ya!<3
rebekah/ the always-high senior! and motivating person, minesweeper expert. you're another great listening ear too, no matter what. and just really really thoughtful, always putting others before yourself. from the first day i saw you, i already knew you are a very nice person. :D theres nothing to hide from you, cos i just speak out from my heart. haha. you're just a person who people can easily get along with, and thats no easy job, being plain friendly all the time. so i really admire you for that:D and obviously, your loud voice that i can hear a distance away. you're really talented, so dont give yourself up kay! cos' you know i will always be supporting you. thanks for everything you've done for me. i still havent paid you back for that plate of carrot cake! haha. love you!<3
105ers
shanping & rosanne/ haha the crazy friends-cum-dancers in the making. shanping the crazier one, and rosanne, the "higher-voltage-d" one. haha. well, thanks for all the laughter thats you have brought into my life. till now, i still can picture us screaming in the neoprint machines and doing wrong things at the wrong time. those times were a blast. it wont be that wonderful without having you as friends, really. from the first day of school, we've been walking down the rocky road of 2007 together, all the way till this year ends. in approximately.. 4 hours? haha. i just wanna tell you i appreciate all the things you have done for me. though we've been through quite a number of misunderstandings, we've cleared them. i dont know, but thats what true friends do right? like what troy and chad says in hsm 2. "hey, brothers fight!" "and we're still brothers." and they embraced each other like they've never seen before. yeah, its that feeling when im with you guys. :D so, i hope we'll be in the same sec 3 class, although thats too far ahead to think of now. love you gals forever.<3
audrey, evie & jianing/ the happy family, yeah. :D although our blog's quite dead already. anyway, i think i've done a lot of wrong to you guys, and im really sorry. hmm. you guys are one in a million, we laugh like friends who have met 10 years ago, when we just knew each other for merely less than a year. its really heartwarming to know that you guys are there when i need you, so thanks(: audrey, for being so kind and funny throughout all the calling marathons and ofcourse, om discussions we've endured. but through it all, we've come by with a great deal of laughter, aint it? :D its been great working with you. and evie, i still am imspired by your matter-of-fact tone, and i think you're born a leader. haha, people just follow you naturally. okay thats not the main point, but actually, that is the cause of the main point. sometimes when i lose my way, you just bark at me and my senses are awakened. so you just practically wake my soul up somehow. and thats a good thing, isnt it? and jianing. jia neh neh orh lu lu. you've become more nonsensical than before, really. you've been greatly influenced by the sick people (ahems, you should know who.) and i think im starting to get influenced too. haha. you're a very unique person who stands strong on your point. and thats really.. brave. seriously. you have no idea how much you inspire me! and dont be too modest, cos you're excellent at stuff that you do:D jiayou for sec 2! love you guys like maddd. <3
jolene & shannon/ of course, you have a dedication too! looking at you two just make me laugh till my tummy aches. natural clowns, huh? thats a blessing you know. you guys are like the stars in a dark place. when people are low, you guys step in and just lighten up the whole atmosphere. thanks for lighting up mine. i dont know how many thank yous i have to say, till the day we cried together, i didnt know that you guys cared so much for me. it seems like boasting here, but i really appreciate it. a whole lot. so really, i love you guys a lot alot alot alot alot x100000. LOVE YOU.<345678
vanessa(kpop buddy!), xingying, julie, chuanling, sara/ although we're arent that close, i know from the start you guys are nice people, no doubt. love you guys too!
thank you my dearies. without your existence, i wouldnt have been the happy lil annoying person i am right now. its just you guys that make nanyang what it seems-cosy and freakinnnn nice.
cheers for 2008!
love you guys<3
BFF LOVIN'!
oh and last of all, happy new year.
*life is such a bizarre journey
yesterday... was quite a marathon.
first of all, had choir. and i think i had a chill when we went out to yawn. sudden atmospheric temperature changes, i think. cos when we went back into m404, i felt roasted.
then choir ended at 12.. and youming and i went to bukit timah plaza to get lunch. cup noodles. we had to cross so many roads, and i felt quite drowsy already. and i thought it was the cause of intense heat. haha. well, we ate there then went back.
gathered with batchmates for awhile then got changed. my body was aching everywhere, especially my legs. dont know how much it grew, but the courtshoes i bought merely months ago could barely fit me, such that my toes were squashed all the way to the insides of it. and it was OW. then, we practiced outside the auditorium for a while. and the people who were entering and leaving the auditorium were laughing at us. dont know whats so funny, but they still laughed.
anyway, the performance was hilarious. since i, the blurr sotong, couldnt get the lyrics of mamma mia and somewhere out there memorised, i had to mouth the words while trying to hum the tune. i think i looked like some bee on stage. but i wasnt aware about what i was doing, really. surprisingly, shanping and rosanne were there. and when the choir came to sang the last part of mamma mia, the mamamamama mia part, rosanne laughed till her senior knocked her head (?) i was quite lost then, like totally lost, i just had to blend into the surroundings.LOL.
then watched abit of the sec 1 orientation concert. i liked the softball and judo ones. authentic! yeah. haha then youming and baoxian managed to change in the auditorium(like i dont know how) but i didnt had the guts to cos i had this horrifying experience where i couldnt take the gown off. it was just.. stuck. so leting had to pull if off for me.LOL.
then we went home. and i was super duper drowsy on the bus and after baoxian went i thought i was going to drop down dead. everything was spinning, quite unbelievable eh. i felt like vomiting and everything and i thought i was going to die.
but in the end, i didnt.(of course!)
found out i had a really high fever so i slept throughout the rest of the evening. and then talked to leting for about an hour about lotsa stuff.
yesterday's conversation was very meaningful and memorable.. and leting, you didnt make it worse, really. you made it better. and thanks lots for your understanding, loyee <3
you know?
sometimes there are really dreadful things in life, which you regret so much, for giving your all for them, trying your very best so that they can turn out the way you wanted. however, the results are always unexpected twists.
thats why, my expectations of everything have gone so low, its just really unnatural, but inevitable.
really, cos times when i can just let go and be myself... are just really limited.
and sometimes, i just ask myself, "is that what you really want?"
but i cant hear the inside me.
i dont know why, but i think im hiding the truth.. the truth that i dont know who i am, not anymore.
and unfortunately, some joy had been fake, it just seems like a perfect dream. because joy can just be shattered into a million pieces with a single word, a sentence, with people's actions, people's differing attitude towards different people and yeah.. sadly, just favouritism.
so sometimes people's sudden changes just make me lose my way.
how sad.
cos' when the audition music started playing, we rocked the house out. by dancing like a bunch of lunatics, screaming and laughing our heads off. practically no one cared. so yeah.:D
anyway, its amazing how christmas passes by so quickly.
sometimes i wonder how i managed to survive spending this one and only festive season, when its just like a normal day spent.
so today, feels like a normal day.
my parents went to work, and i woke up at 10 by my noisy cousin who has been talking on the PHONE, and spent my whole afternoon on the couch watching the chronicles of narnia. pfft, i cant say i want anything more for Christmas, because i think this one Christmas is filled with love. it just makes you smile naturally when you stare into air, and just think of all those happy memories you your friends and family shared. christmas is special to everyone in their own special way, and i think i just totally understood the whole meaning of this festive season.
im sorry, audrey, for being able to go shopping, and shaun, for not being to watch the movie with you. frankly speaking, i think i want to rush out of my house if i ever could. haha, but thats... impossible. but the most amazing thing is i like staying in my house because its where magic happens! things just turn out the way you wanted it to, and just stay there, satisfying you. although momentarily. haha. theres nothing better with making up with a best friend and chatting with lovely people all about christmas.
when i go to another family gathering later (i had one already:/) i'll make sure i'll enjoy to the fullest, to the end of the christmas in 2007.
i really think christmas is awesome. :D
merry christmas!
the above title says it all, doesnt it? probably cos its the first ever time i've spent a festive occasion with my friends. okay maybe not a festive occasion, but an eve of one? i hope its still counted anyway.
and... its just amazing how my friends gave me a different outlook on christmas, and they are so influential, i think im enjoying and lovin' christmas for the first ever time truthfully.(although its only the eve) also.. i think of bugis in a whole new different way now. its not the place to neo, shop, watch movies, no. it was the place where people could relate to one another in many many different ways. through clothes, food, games, whatever. and thats how much its worth to spend so much on travelling to get to that place, cos the people make the place lovable, and not vice versa.
so yes. cheers to nyc!
and the main reason was - the first official outing of ny choristers. loyee, darling leting, tze hui and me. and so, i got up at 7.30 to fetch leting to the MRT. and seriously, i still cant believe she doesnt know how to get there.LOL. but we had a great nice chat on the way to newton mrt and to bugis. more like a giggly chat. haha. but once we stepped onto bugis mrt's platform, lots of bizarre situations occurred. like this really really REALLY unbelievable thing happened, and a GREAT example is of how i got to notice loyee at the mrt station. when we tapped our ezlinks, i suddenly breathed so deep and gasped, froze and pointed to something familiar. someone i mean. and leting, according to what she said, froze like me too. and to me, it was like the whole world stop moving, except that whom i was pointing at with no direction. and i actually was thinking. "who is that? shes soooo familiar." and after about 5 minutes of total silence, i finally shrieked, "LOYEE!!!" hahaha. then i spotted tze hui and four of us walked to bugis mall(?).
and our first destination was the cinema ticketing booth to buy alvin and the chipmunks movie tickets, then we walked around. first to bugis street. and it was really awkward, well thats what i felt. because loyee seemed as if she could walk a hundred miles per minute while leting tzehui and i were lagging behind. and tzehui was literally pushing all of us so that we dont look we're playing the 老鹰捉小鸡 game. haha. next stop, was outside of BGM(right?). then we window-shopped for quite a while. but it was really embarrassing, cos quite a few salesgirls caught us. but we got away, like so naturally. haha.
the next stop was the arcade. surprising how ppl like us could visit that horrible banging place, but we did. and i practically donated $4 to those nonsensical machines. but it was really worth it. and i like the basketball game the best. (now i know what you mean, cass!) but i shot one ball out and it almost killed me, while leting shot multiple balls out of that net thingo and one hit me straight in my face. haha. and there was this car thing, which could come to life, cos it was moving like how i was moving in the car race, so when i banged, it jerked. trust me, you have to try that.
and after all those exhaustion plus continuous screamings, we went to mos burger. where we chatted for an hour. about many many things. like examining contact lenses, hearing things wrongly, listen to leting's sickkkk jokes and so on. even though it was just plain talking and sitting still, yes it was fun. :D
it was the ultimate must-go place next. the neoprint shop! we screamed a whole lot. and didnt know what the neoprint machine was talking about, so we posed when we didnt have to, and didnt when we needed to. so we practically looked (and sounded like) a bunch of lunatics. but the neoprints turned out fine. and nice:D
and it was time for alvin and the chipmunks. i made my sore throat worse by gobbling up popcorn and nachos, with some last minute sip of pepsi. and i almost fell asleep in the theatre although the show was really cute and nice what with all those joyous squeaky voices in a melody.
next... we went to this shop called shibuya(leting screamed her wits out) and there we bought a christmas sock for loyee:D hope you like it! and we walked around somemore. then tzehui had to go home so we escorted her to the mrt station, where we seperated without a HUG. and i was like."oh man! we didnt give her a hug." and leting said,"oh realy? wanna call her back? anyway i think shes gone already." so there goes the hug. oh well.
after that three of us wanted to stop by at tcc but even the drinks were shockingly unaffordable so we changed venue, mccafe, where there wasnt a spot left enough to stand, so we finally found a place in the food court. loyee drank ice lemon tea, while leting and i had ice milo and an addition of honey dew for me, which dropped on the floor due to my clumsiness. and there was another non-stop giggling talk.
at about 5.30, we headed for mrt and talked somemore, till i left at ych and loyee shouted something out of the mrt. "must bring ah!" oh and thanks for not saying what i must bring. haha. and yeah, went home.
thanks guys for the amazing day, cos you've just made up the best christmas i've ever had. i love you guys, more for this Christmas and forever. <3
so heres the pictures!
this is quite random, took with my bro in the plane. and he insisted on letting the chipmunk (in the middle of us) be included in this photo. lol.
with my sister in osaka airport. i forgot what its called.
hello kitty stuffs. went to this shop which sells lotsa kitty things, and they're all very nice, but expensive as usual.
took this universal ball on the first day. i think the smoke looks cool.
oh and i forgot to add this interesting part of the japan trip. we were taken to the deers' park in the temple place on the 2nd place. and the deers were like REALLY cute. just say "ohayo!" and they'll bow to you like you're their owner. lol. but they're really scary. my bro and i wanted to feed those deers, and when we bought the biscuits, we captured quite alot of attention. a whole herd of deers chased after us. and goodness me, they're not only like 5, the number was more than TEN. i got so scared i just flicked all the biscuits to my dad! and they started licking us all over, till my mum was already surrendering herself by flinging her arms in the air, shrieking "eh, i dont have! you see, i dont have!!!" and it was so damn funny, even though all of us were being held captive by those deers, we were all laughing at her. and many many many tourists came to look at us with interest. how embarrassing, but next time when i buy deer biscuits i'll hide them in my pocket first. :D
oh this is the night view of tokyo city. after several failed attempts, i finally managed to capture a perfect shot. claps:D
family photo in a hotel!
one of my favourite places. there was seven's cd in hmv but it was too ex.
a display of spectucular fireworks in disney. and i was queuing up for some bridgestone car competition when i took this.
yes, thats not all of course, i used up all 3 memory cards i have in my camera, and there're more taken in my dad's and mum's, but i picked my favourites. :D
its been long, aint it? for once, i didnt bother to post. haha. and right just now, my cousin and sibs were competing with LEMONS. like who ate the most amount of lemon wins. in the end, my so brave brother took a big bite, and there he goes. thank God he didnt puke. cos i almost puked out of laughter.
thats totally crap. anyway. about my japan trip. saddest thing is. i didnt manage to find se7en's cd. they're all either too expensive ($60) or they're just a few compilations. I WANT THE REAL ALBUMS. and i wanted to go to pop idol teen street (something like that) in shibuya to hunt for posters for julie and my recent kpop partner vanessa plus evie but ended up stranded in another far east plaza called shibuya 109 somewhere near the JR line. at least we didnt get lost. and i got a big tick off for bringing us to the wrong place. but anyways, the compensation was clothes(: at first we ate some snacks and observed the people entering the plaza. they're like scary looking freaks, but not like the ah lians in singapore. they look more stylish. yes, they do. and when we finished snacking, i random-ed around the shops and i didnt spot any kids. not even girls or guys my age. thats why i didnt dare to go into any shops alone. how pathetic, right? and brave leting actually dared to. haha, but too bad, they're only selling winter clothes, so i got like the thinnest long-sleeved tees. which i dont think singapore has. so its quite unique, and they cost a bomb. this is the last day, by the way.
yes, another highlight is obviously the one and only disneyland. not as fun as i supposed, but its quite okay. my family makes the rest of the humour. and i wanted to ride space mountain but no one wanted to ride, except for my so very brave brother, who is only 123 cm tall. and there was this guy taller than me carried out by a friend, all white like a sheet. so well, we didnt manage to hitch a ride. so we went for the kiddy one instead. surprisingly, there were like so many adults queuing, and seeing the people scream as if they're gonna be eaten up by some monster, i was quite convinced it was fun, but wasnt at all thinking it was scary.
but guess what. what it was nearing a cave when the fun would be at its peak my sister screamed into the darkness as if there's no tomorrow and my heart was going to jump out of my mouth. i wanted to scream too, but when i opened my mouth, nothing came out. i was like a mute. but it was just laughter that came out. cos my sister's laughter was so consistent it went like this. AHHHHH *big breath* AHHHHHH *big breath* AHHHHH and etc. it was so damn funny i couldnt stop laughing when i got out of the scary little machines. and there was like a TODDLER sitting in front of me. i felt so shameful. im 13, like hello? i could have been born with stronger wits you know.
anyway, i rode that ride four times altogether, cos i visited disneyland twice. and going at night's the best. everybody's squeezing in and out just to get to the blinking Disney castle with colourful flashing lights, and to experience the one of a kind thing. but i was like thinking, give me a break. the castle is so tall i can see it when im riding the roller coaster. so there goes it. no one was queuing, and i got to enjoy a 3 consequent ride with my sibs. :D oh and i bought one minnie mouse head thing, which covered my whole head and kept drooping to my eyelids. but i didnt give a hell care cos ppl around me of all ages were wearing those creepy things. and when there was the mickey mouse parade, it actually noticed me and waved at me with such enthusiasm i was willing to wave back. how amazing! haha. i guess Disneyland's really the place where magic occurs. and i took lotsa pictures. in the cold that is. my father placed the cam on timer and we took our family photo without any help. nice tripod stand, but irritating cos i had to carry it. oh wells. there were about 5-6 more kiddy rides i sat on, but they weren't very eye-catching. but i am still wondering what could have happened if i sat on the space mountain. i think i would have dropped down and died. nvm, if audrey shan rosanne jolene evie and shannon were there, plus a few rosyth mates, maybe i'll survive. next time when i get older and taller, that is. i hope thats the case.
and oh yes, on the 5th or 6th day, my tour group saw mt fuji out of nothingness. it was just standing there in front of your eyes. lucky, thats what the tour guide said. but when she brought us to mt fuji, and i was imagining a whole space filled with tingling snow on the ground, i was so totally wrong. it turned out to be a small blank space maybe the size of two bungalows. and that was mt fuji. and i was like. "are we on the mountain?" and the tour guide was "yes" i almost laughed out loud, but i kept my mouth shut. cos others were disappointed too.
yes, and on the first day, our first destination after all of us got out of the plane was universal studios. i thought it was a movie theater. pardon my stupidity. it was a theme park. watched many brilliant 3d shows. like spiderman, its almost a circular roller coaster. cos spider man was jumping everywhere he didnt station himself clearly. yes, and others were quite normal.
its quite disappointing, really. probably its cos too much time was spent on travelling. like on JR line and Keisei plus Yamanote line, they're driving me crazy. and some person made us live all the way in Narita, an OUTSKIRT of tokyo. so about 4 h was spent on trains everyday. but great experience. i still like singapore mrt better. as for better details and photos, they'll be posted up somewhat later. :D
thank you all and good night.
and 601, i love you<3
*ready, get set, GO!:D
the day has finally arrived!
im going to the airport in approximately 8 hours, and my flight is 2 hours after. but i bet i'll be as wide awake as an owl. thats what God made me as!
im not quite excited now, but i'll be later. that's plain nonsense. its quite incredulous to think all these words just came out of my fingers. haha, anyway, i've packed everything already, though im definitely sure there'll be some last minute rushings(like i will forget to bring my favourite pillow or smth!), but most of all, i'll miss all my dearies here! not only miss, but miss with all my HEART and SOUL. its okay, im still contactable. :D
haha, by the time i leave for the airport, loyee would have reached singapore and on thursday, darling leting will be tracing my footsteps to the airport and into the plane, and to the same destination, the one and only japan. it will be miraculous if i ever meet her there. but if destiny allows us to, we will!
so heres a well wishing to loyee to take care and leting, to enjoy your trip! and to my besties, take care of yourselves too! i will miss you when i get there. you guys are the love!
& so, japan here i come:D
lets put the past including all our doubts and anger behind us and look at the bright future.<3
today was a terribly stodgy day...
its like a holiday's a routine... where mostly i get glued to the computer screen almost round the clock. except the times when i sleep, which is almost half the day.
anyway... i finished copious amounts of work. i finished the costume designs for ALL characters in the OM storyline(which made my phone bill and electricity charges boom up so high, but nevertheless had fun with audrey), packed my needs for the japan trip (except those valuables), plan out my shopping list(like FINALLY), and my checklist. it seems a really really long time when i accomplished so many things in one day. haha.
oh, and not to forget, i watched Her Best Move on Disney. It was terrific. Oh and speaking of Disney movies, they never fail to satisfy you. They ALWAYS give you those goosebumps and hairs streaking up on all parts of your body when it nears the ending. That's what like about Disney's movies(: i recommend this movie! and visiting Disneyland in Tokyo is one of the main point of going to japan, even though there are loads more to look forward to. NOW, at least. :D
and its quite weird. the sec1 batch in sop 2 is going to japan. all three of us - darling leting, lam and me. affinity huh?
there really isnt anything much to blog about, so till then, tata!
take care, loyee!
i feel so idiotic. i was being such a retard i talked so much crappy things.
IM SORRY for annoying people!
today a whole new stranger came into m301 and i was starting to moan the usuals= "oh no, assistant conductor again."
all thanks to mr xavier. he haunts me every night after he appeared during choir with his weird low-tune and sing-song voice, so soft we cant hear a thing even from the first row.
anyway, ms lee was nice(: she could really control us with overwhelming power she made us do her bidding by gesturing and speaking nicely. i think we'll do well with her. no, not think, i know!
after choir, i rushed to bugis. then we got started on the new storyline, and i hope it'll turn out good, safe and perfect.
the funny part was when it was already going to 4 when i was rushing home with shan since i've got tuition, and the jolene jianing and shan gave me a bucket of fries. and i thought they were presenting me a bucket of SAND to make sandcastles with. hoho.
but the fries were nice(: nice fries by nice people! then shanping forced me to eat in the mrt. and loads of ppl were staring at us. devoured the fries for a while but when the starings were bad to the extent that people started beckoning their friends towards us i hurriedly shut the lid close. and there was this lady who said to her guy friend: "wait i squeeze your neck ah!" and previously shan and i were engaging in a really interesting conversation about fries and fines. when we heard her, we made that eye connection and stopped talking, then laughed out loud. really L O L. :D
haha! then we reached amk station and many shovings occurred to get out of that damn squeezy place, theres this madcow screaming his head off and practically banging his head on the MRT window. both of us were utterly shocked by his lion-nic behaviour, cos he GRRR-ed to the wall in front of him, and his friend was hehehe -ing for no reason. weirdest people are sighted mostly in the mrt.
well, thats all.
oh, one last thing. when i heard that we were most likely to gratz, for once in my whole mama life, my heart skipped a beat in CHOIR. im so elated:D
once more, "wait i bite your neck!"
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many meaningful things happened today, although they're quite the littlest thingums on earth(: i just feel thankful at least i do have the chance to feel what i felt, and have the chance to feel nostalgic about today in future(im confident i will)
choir practice was as per normal today, except we had to do some stupid chinese song, which turned our brains inside up after cracking them with all those weird streaks made into an incomprehensible chinese character. brrr. we finished it up though, quite the ny 风格！♥ and then rebekah seemed quite extraodinary today. her eyes were almost flipping into double eyelids ones. its like she gave out that radiating power which somehow hypnotises people. (quite exaggerating eh?) she said she was suffering from an insect bite, which was quite bad, judging from the white thingo that appears out of it. hope you're okay rebekah! rest well and get well soon(:♥
haha well. then we (youming, wenjing, loyee, leting darling and me) somehow bounced down the steps while chatting towards POP. and we had this... really... meaningful chat i guess. it somehow changes topic so suddenly it came to a point when wenjing leting and i confronted her what we have been wanting to tel her for quite sometime.
well, i guess i didnt really manage to say much during that certain period of time when they were all discussing... cos i really cant put my thoughts into words. i feel im turning into a devil to have such gruesome thoughts.
favouritism... i agree to the fullest with leting when she said it was inevitable.. but somehow it really turns out to the extreme. you cant just see it, you feel it. and i think thats the worst part. feeling all the unfairness in the world, pondering relentlessly about what makes other people different from you, and finally resulting to you hating yourself about who you are, and trying to change yourself to such disgusting extent that you scare people off. i dont exactly think i felt this way; but if my juniors next year ever confide in me about favouritism, i will know how they feel. i wont exactly permit myself to be a 100% sure i'll not practice favouritism next year, though how much i despise the feeling of having juniors, but i'll try to be impartial. cos i know feeling like you're an odd egg out of the whole world is a horrible one.
but it's quite heartwarming and its definitely a relief somehow to hear that loyee understands. it's one in a million of seniors who understand how other juniors feel. thats quite special and amazing of her.<3 i gues thats why many people look up to her, as a senior and a friend.
and i think leting, thats one of our main reasons to have that inexplicable respect towards her. the great virtue she has of understanding, and even bothering to listen, not pushing the subject away, but clearing our doubts as well as reassuring us. haha. im really sorry if i've annoyed you with all the mean "characteristics" of me, but it's just me right? haha. its most fortunate that i have such a friend like you whom i'm able to confide in without having to make any white lies, you know, i can just go on blabbering and blabbering to you non-stop. it's just... really unusual that i can make this complete connection with a person and tell you EVERYTHING with all my heart, thats why. darling doesnt come out from my mouth without a reason, you know(:
yeah, and just now, i have been spastic-ing with amanda tan. and she gave me a great insight on english songs, while i preached to her about se7en non-stop. what i find most surprising is the fact that she shares the same sentiments with bout 7. LOL. haha. <3
these little things just totally make my day.
031207 is complete with love<3
it was quite an abnormal day yesterday.
went to bugis NLB for OM meeting, which turned out surprisingly productive, and then rushed home for tuition. i was already panting like a DOG and my mom told me the tuition's cancelled. and so i rushed home for nothing.
and as usual, i slept slept and slept. for like 4 hrs. then, headed to tampines for fishing of PRAWNS. i never knew people could fish prawns. authentic experience.
and i improved A WHOLE LOT yesterday. compared to the first time when i spent three whole hours singing away by the pool waiting for some stupid prawn to consume the bait and in the end, i bet my bait was not so attractive so i caught NONE. yesterday i caught 6(: hoho. i feel quite accomplished.
we left that ulu place at around 2.30 am and ate roti prata at jalan kayu, finishing our past-midnight meal at 300, so i slept at around 4.
i have no idea why i call that an abnormal day; i just feel like ranting on and on non-stop for a few inexplicable reasons.
and nowadays, i feel like im so prone to getting angry. wanna know why?
firstly, i have no darn idea where all the damn trust went to. first, my mum thinks im ANOREXIC. just because i dont feel like eating. then, she thinks im MENTAL, cos i've dog-earred almost every page of harry potter and the deathly hallows mainly because all those bombastic words used didnt make any sense to me, and i was going to check out the dict after i've finished the book. what next? i dont wanna know.
now come to think of it, i have no idea how my anger fades after every darn hour when this sort of thing happens. i wish i was more temperamental.
and my dad? he isnt any better.
when i was just asking him to give me a lift to the MRT to go for OM meeting, he kept on ranting on and on about how often i go out, despite of the COUNTLESS times of explaining to him i'm going out for the discussion of PROJECT.
"wah, so busy hor. always go out go out go out."
and normally, i would repel those words with the force of truth.
but now he keeps on asking, i feel i shouldnt waste my damn breath anymore.
"you think im a three year old kid is it?"
GIVE ME A BREAK. FOR. ONCE. IN. MY. LIFE.
it doesnt take much to understand one another, does it?!
this is one of the reasons why i feel home isnt like home anymore.
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