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Friday, November 30, 2007 @ 6:21 PM
SE7EN<3333
*SE7EN<3333

theres something totally wrong with me today. i spent the whole afternoon researching on SE7EN for some i-dont-know-what reason. and watching all the videos about him on youtube just makes me smile and laugh freakinnn heartily. still, for I DONT KNOW WHAT. i guess this is just a normal momentarily craziness.
but i must say, hes REALLY talented. a step to become rain, but i still think hes better:D im apt to all these singers. and im starting to like kpop, which attracts me to mumble those weird korean words, which are really incomprehensible to me. so its just murmurring a couple of syllables. WEIRD WEIRD.

here's one video of him :D haha. i think im going overboard~



MAN, I JUST LOVE HIM TO BITS.<3

im revealing the other crazy side of me. unheard of eh?

Wednesday, November 28, 2007 @ 11:49 PM
choir<3
*choir<3

today was such a lovable one(:
choir was quite fun, cos we had this nutty talking session so that we could somehow laugh our hearts out without having to worry whether we would offend someone.
then came home and spent two hours here, and set off again. apparently, my sickening sense of direction made leting and i travel all the way to orchard mrt which was super far from our intended destination to newton. hoho. and then. more than usual, we crapped around again(: and had this heart to heart talk.
this WEIRD person claims that im funny and humourous, which i think not. haha. maybe im just like that when im "comfy". figure that out. we were later joined by tzehui and baoxian, and met wenjing at city hall.
had a little insight on the insides of raffles city shopping center(i think?) and then settled down in burger king, and shifted our butts to mos burger instead. well, both are selling the same old burgers of course, but the price was totally different, so yeah. then we headed to ben and jerry's from ice cream.:D

didnt regret a single bit forking out a precious 4.90 for a tiny cup of choco brownie ice cream. it was heavenlicious(: all thanks to that devil, leting. hurh. and we took some photos.

hoho. glad that the fountain was shot.

eh? they were planning some sacarstic look with the inbalance of eyebrows! look at leting. haha. and tzehui's quite successful on that too!

had a great time spasticing around and walked to vch. and oh my gosh, im SO gonna blog bout this.
leting has an amazingsuperbfantaliciousfabulous voice!
fit in all other good adjectives yourself; my english was NEVER good.
anyway.
LIKE OMG LA. she could sing like a total singer. even though she was using her throat voice, like what she claims, i dont think people will notice it. it was spotless; meaning it was round, "full" and most of all, MESMIRISING. i think im turning into a total freak talking to myself about her voice. but. ITS ONE OF THE MOST AMAZING TOUCHING THINGS I'VE EVER HEARD. talented and more talented. and if i didnt know her and i heard her voice, i would have thought she was some sort of a genius. which she already is.
but seriously. for voices that actually touch my heart, hers is one of the few(: feel honoured, darling!<3>boring and even intended not to join choir at the beginning. and truthfully, i thought going to choir was a chore. i thought of choir only as a plain cca, not planning to get attached to it, nothing. and so the only thing i put my full heart to is my class, which isnt a very wrong thing to do, but not quite a good thing either. the way people enjoy their ccas made me feel so jealous, so miserable that i was wondering how in the world could have joined the gruesome choir.
and from then on, choir seemed like a total monster to me. i was going to choir just for the sake of having a cca. no feelings for it, nothing at all. oh and here it comes. i thought that everything will be fine after a while, it was just a moment of being "angry". and thats how i went on.
in the middle of the year, things start to develop. stronger bonds developed between seniors and me, although quite little, between my own section and me, and obviously, my level and me. and since then, these few people were the kind of force that attracted me to choir, rather than repel from it. im SO thankful of that. i tried liking choir then. well, it was a start, cos at least i've got something to look forward to when i go there. and i must say, this "mission" i worked on turned out quite successfully. it cant be counted as attaching myself to choir, but at least i liked it sometimes. and some of the other times not liking it for specifically mean reasons. and i cant believe what i did, but i forced myself to. like forcing up a totally fake smile on my face and tried talking, but although i did, i didnt put my true heart to it.
when seniors ask me whether i do adore choir, i couldnt decide. there was this hesitation before i blurted out a forced "yes", and pulling on a smile after that. but in my heart, i felt totally disgusted with myself. i actually lied. although there were really times when i loved choir to nothing but bits, it wasnt to the extent of loving it forever truely yet. and i feel so freakishly disgusted with myself for telling a lie. its not exactly a white lie, but most importantly, i lied to myself. i was indecisive on my own heart. one part of me was full of remorse and the other was actually laughing at me derisively. and a small speck of light actually appeared in my heart somehow, like those candles, but quite "unstable", telling me to not tell lies anymore, but follow my heart. and i guess this whole thing explains my quiet-ness during choir.
and now, i dont quite feel that im attached to choir yet, but at least i know where im heading for, how i want to feel, and how i want to express it.
but in someway or another, i have a strong belief that i will, somehow and someday, love choir with all my heart, regardless of all other hurtful things. so that if anyone ever pops out this question of whether i like choir, i will confidently spurt out a definite yes, without no hesitations whatsoever.

whosh, i feel that my heart's quite light again. its like spilling out a secret i've been trying to keep for so long, and which is threatening to cut my heart up into pieces. haha. many thanks to darling leting who let me 敞开了心门。
im really thankful to all these significant chorister mates(like leting). although it seems that they didnt do anything, actually they did by being true to me about choir and trusting me, and thanks<3cos 最大的鼓励就是信任,right?

now rereading all these seem like i've been crapping again.:D

im quite contented anyways.
well. nights!

Saturday, November 24, 2007 @ 1:40 PM
happy birthday saiying!<3
today's yet another special day; since its her special day, it makes my day special too:D

happy birthday saiying!<3
thanks for everything! although we arent really that close, but still you make my life more colourful with your random-ness and laughter:D come to think of it, yes, your laughter's kind of unique, it sounds like a mouse's, but it doesnt. oh wells! hahaha.
oh and something just crossed my mind. whenever i call saiying, well, here's the NORMAL phone conversation we have...

me: hello, saiying please?
saiying: oh hi, im saiying
me: hi saiying! im amanda here
saiying: oh, i know you're amanda
me: how you know?
saiying: you sound like amanda.

-irresolute silence-

burst out laughing.

weird huh. i never knew i was that recognisable on the phone. cos normally people will ask me. "who are you?" LOL!
in any other way.
happy birthday saiying!!! remember to have fun.:)

LOVES!

Friday, November 23, 2007 @ 6:49 PM
*trust
trust: confidence in or reliance on some person or quality.

if there was trust, things wouldnt have come this way.
if there was trust, you wouldnt have to ask others what you asked me before.
if there was trust, i wouldnt be feeling like im so far apart from you.
if there was trust, you wouldnt be asking me the same question over and over again.
if there was trust, we wouldnt be drifting apart.
if there was trust, i wouldnt be feeling like my whole world is crashing down.

what has happened to the world which once had full of trust? i cant feel the invisible connection between me and anyone else now. i guess this is what that has been haunting me since the march holidays, haunting me till it sucks out my soul, till i contradict myself, till i feel empty.

i want all the trust back.

right now i just feel like im in the dark alone, with no direction, with no thought, with no companion.

@ 6:05 PM
*flooglygums
*flooglygums

right, that was a random word. i have been inventing words of my own since the holidays started. i guess its cos of the increasing boredom. sighs!

oh well.
choir as usual today. felt really sian.. i think im losing interest in music. Pop songs even. SAD!!! theres nothing much to perk me up, except goong s and solitaire showdown. i really hope i can 振起精神for choir, otherwise i would be just like a soul-less creature with four limbs doing stuff not on her own accord but just for the sake of doing it. OH MANNN. even i myself am tired of all the groans and moans plus sighs nowadays. D: if the only exuberant thingum (choir) is not going to make me feel alive anymore, i think im as good as dead!

& i think i've been on a mission on killing ANTS recently. they GET THE HELL OUT OF ME. i was supposed to give like six sweets to my OM team on one particular day, and i forgot, so when i got home i just stashed all of them outta my bag and threw them onto my table. awhile later, those freakkiinnnnn creepy crawlies start coming out of nowhere when i was playing my comp, and i had to waste a great deal of tissue papers just to wipe out that colony. GROSS. and i was thinking. where in the freakkinnn world do they come from?! and the answer was yes. the bunch of sweets. oh my gosh. the sight of the irkish ANTS freaked me out instantly. and now, theres still those freakkinnn creepy crawlies crawling out from NOWHERE. ughhhh.

so much for that. and since i've got plenty of time, i've been doing some serious thinking. tossing and turning, rather. yesterday i thought i was going to die after i banged my head hard on my bed front. it really didnt hurt at all, but when i was younger my mom used to repeat "dont bang your head, it'll make you die" and she would start ranting on and on about this 8-yr-old girl who banged her head, didnt feel any pain at all and the next day she died. apparently my mom claims that things have been wriggling here and there in her brain. head insights. HAH. and when i banged my head, instantly all those freakish moments start flashing all over again in my head, and the whole day i felt quite weak. but i perservered and told myself not to sleep, even after watching tv at 2am, until i couldnt take it anymore.

but im still alive, arent i?

IM BEING SOOOO RETARDED.

Thursday, November 22, 2007 @ 4:13 PM
a phenomenon happened today.

im not really sure, but i think 294 is the best psle score ever. how can that genius be so smart? everybody was like wow-ing so much when the news broke out or leaked out or whatever. so much that people started bombarding my screens with "OMG!HAVE YOU HEARD?THE HIGHEST PSLE SCORE'S 294!!!" my eyes were popping out.
and that guy's from st hilda. totally unexpected...

oh anyway!
theres nothing much to blog about. one of the few exceptions is choir, which was and IS quite high:D ms lim just started blabbering about everything on our last choir practice, making everybody laugh over nothingness again. well, thats a good thing isnt it? haha, cant wait for the next practice tomorrow(:

aha! and i changed my blogskin today; had been searching for one suitable one since yesterday. oh and finally, i got one:D credits to jerlyn who so kindly helped out in viewing all the irritating links i sent her.

Monday, November 19, 2007 @ 11:15 PM
<3 jolene
lol, its quite hard to believe this playful girl here is going to turn into a teen in aprox. 45 minutes time. but anyways. quite a dear friend she has been(:

10 reasons why she's so lovable:
- she's a true friend(:
- she stands up for her friends' rights
- she cheers people up
- she considers other people's feelings
- she can influence people to be retarded:D
- she knows when to do the right thing
- she puts in all her heart in everything she does
- she is honest
- she never backstabs
- she's just someone you can hardly find.
and there's so much more, it'll take forever if i write them all down(:

but anyways!

jolene, thanks for being that very great friend you've been. its quite difficult to say and understand you cos i only got closer to you like recently so... counting on my yan3 guang1 (lol) if you i only know you in such a short time, and i can write down all these things straight and deep down from my heart.. well.. you're already quite fantabulous. haha.
basically... i've already said what i wanted to say in the card.. and i really cant find the proper words now cos im all emo and everything but soon, i will(:

i just wanna let you know i love you forever and ever and ever and ever!!!

happy 13th birthday(:

Sunday, November 18, 2007 @ 3:39 PM
*photos!
here are the photos i promised, so jolene and the rest and copy them:D


jianing and audrey were trying to take jumping photos, but some of themm... reek of failure?
haha. audrey was jumping away in the first pic,.




and this one... the birthday girl<3


dont mind the plastic there.. and see. its on a trayyy!

the birthday cake(:

jianing camwhoring!

audrey's turn!

haha. and this...

sec 1 batch in sop 2(: amanda and leting and amanda. LOVES!

Saturday, November 17, 2007 @ 7:25 PM
*high to low.
sometimes i think i REALLY shouldnt look forward to things that much.

it's like. i was picturing a great scene of today's workshop, with us cheering for our lives when we clinched some prize..



but for the dont-know-how-many time, my spectulations are just like wrong hypothesis(es)?. i seriously seriously seriously hate it. we've been practicing SO HARD. SO LONG. and plus another extra factor, we've got a new conductor whom we have no idea how to get along with. omg? we were only given 5 pathetic practices to polish up our songs and also get used to the new conductor. but in the end, it all turned to chaos, well except for the last one practice. i suddenly wish that we could swop today's performance with the last practice one. even mr meng said it was good. it wasnt any use squeezing and holding and clinging onto darling leting so tight today, cos i had that strong feeling that some bad phenomenon would happen.

so much for the excitement. i feel so slaughter-ish now.ughhhhhh.


but after that, things got much better. by the time i got home, audrey and jianing were already waiting for me for like abt 1/2 h. my usual latecomings(: and then i hurriedly got changed and ate, while shan came. and then while they were playing with that flabelos thing, i got to the bustop and fetched evie cos apparently she had no umbrella with her, and unfortunately for me, my stupid slipper practically slooped off my feet due to the wetness of the grounds. and i was in the middle of the road, plus i screamed before i ran to get my shoe back, by which at that time the green man was already blinking.
wells. then we discussed OM for a while... wasnt quite productive though. didnt had our brain juices squeezed out enough. and at about 3++ jolene arrived. and we were supposed to give her a surprise! yeah. and i came out with some stupid excuse that audrey and jianing were in the toilet when she stepped into my house when actually, they were preparing the cake. hoho. however, i think she believed me. and i got down again and audrey and jianing carried the cake up and when they stepped into the room i off-ed the lights and we burst into a loud and so damn off-tune chorus of "happy birthday". according to jolene, she almost cried. hhaha. but it was so fun. cos we had that mango cake in a tray and ther wasnt any table, and evie professionally cut the cake on the sofa! and then we ate ate ate and continued discussing, not really discussing though. more like thinking of what to do next. and an hour soon passed and the pizza arrived, followed by an early dinner accompanied by i not stupid too. lol. evie went home first, then shan then audrey and jianing and jolene the last.

today was quite okay i gues, i think the part i liked most was when we were secretly carrying out our surprise-for-jolene mission. hoho! i hope she liked that cake that audrey and jianing bought and our presents plus our so not well planned surprise! ha. i think i'll post up the pictures we took some other time. dont really feel in the mood right now. plus i've got to rush to my uncle's house for yet another boring gathering!

happy early birthday; love you jolene<3

Friday, November 16, 2007 @ 11:28 PM
*gogo choirrrrrr.:D
heyy guys!
choir was EXTREMELY FABULOUS today:D, although it was considered as one of the shortest practices EVER, only suming up to like. 1 1/2 h? oh lols.
today was quite productive. mr mengdapeng(?) came to teach us. and kept on giving us funny funny unheard-of music terms. and honeydarling leting and i were -.is her idol! and i was like. "yesyes! me too:D" (and rebekah also. i dint know choir seniors could inspire juniors! HOHO.) hahaha. yeah i totally agree with leting, someday loyee and rebekah will definitely shineeeee as student conductors, and even conductors(: so JIAYOU!!! dont feel ju3sang4 just because of some lil setbacks. continue to work hard... bear in mind we are behind supporting you guys ALL THE WAYYYY! LOVES<3
and after that we decided to go home since there wasnt anything much to do. i went up to take one last look at 105 classroom(sounds sadistic?:/) and then leting youming and i parted ways; youming and i went to pop and i bought one pair of socks to save my feet.
when i got home, spent like 3h on the phone discussing about 601 class pt with christine(: lol. so spastic. i think i got more influenced towards the retarded side of the world. hoho! yeah. so 601ners, you better turn up for the class party. if not get ready to be murdered:D kidding.
oh and anyways, i just got back from the market. bought snacks for clique tmr for OM and something else. so excited! and theres so much work to do. its already 23.39! and i wanna watch goong s. i found out it wasnt THAT bad after all(:

theres so many things to look forward to with extreme jubilance tmr. there'll be the choir competition, and youming and i can go spastic around in 74 on the way to sch playing her soccer game, and i can meet JERLYN CASS ERINA KAIJUN from stnicks. tmr. and of cos, OM meeting and secret* after that(:

i just feel so high today!:D

anyways, hope tmr nanyang will clinch some award from the competition, cos we worked really hard, and wouldnt wanna let our seniors down(: JIAYOUUUUUU.<3
i find that my love and passion for choir has increased by at least 110%.:D
i just CANT wait for tomorrow!

Thursday, November 15, 2007 @ 9:28 PM
*one of a many time.
today was ... (irresolute silence)

i think today was like any other normal day lah, just that my eyelids drooped down more. sighs. had choir and my throat almost went voiceless. couldnt even reach high notes, and i just felt like a FROG singing. oh my. and after the "lecture" mr xavier gave us, i realised i was squishing my diaphragm to the rest of my insides. hahah. anyway it got better after that. the vacuum song is starting to rock;D
and after choir i went to bishan library(by myself) to return the chinese books and simultaneously borrowed 2 others. quite surprising eh. then i came home, ate lunch and played comp for a while, then satisfied myself with 3 h of afternoon snorings:D and then at about 8 i woke up and ate dinner and here i am!
there isnt quite a lot to talk about today. so. toodles!

quit being such an idiot.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007 @ 11:20 PM
*one more unforgettable recollection<3
just went out with cassandra and jerlyn today, had more than buckets+mt fuji-sized fun!:D i really regretted not spending and cherishing those bored times we had in primary school... looking back now, i wish so much that there's a timeturner somewhere!
oh wells. i wouldnt wanna bore into such long-winded and typical reminscence gibberish. so.
today three of us planned to meet at amk mrt station at 10am... and i got up at 9.15(i was supposed to wake up at 7.30, but i slept at 3 ytd so couldnt help but sleep somemore(:). wanted to ask for extension of that reporting time since it was raining outside, but still dragged myself out anyway. and surprisingly the bus came when i just reached the busstop. hurhs. and so i reached amk in like 15 min! and there cassandra was, waiting(:
didnt change much, except for her fringe i guess! looks like a chinadoll's! hahah(; but suits her! anyway, we waited for jerlyn and found out she was in amk hub where her father dropped her, and she said the nearest shops were "sharkfin" and mosburger. i was like. what the heck was sharkfin! and it turned out to be something else i forgot(: turned out that jerlyn too didnt change one bit, just that she was kinda. ahems* became kinda ancient, probably after she had her MEP lessons. LOL. whats up about those violin thingo. hahah.
but anyways! we went up to buy ticks. bought ticks at 1130 and before that walked around the shopping area for about 45 min. its like. walking ard some deserted and going-to-be-demolished building! haha, but didnt take care of that. we just walked and talked. and then. The Game Plan started. okay, actually its us who bought nachos combo(after such a LONG DECISION ABOUT
POPPYS AND NACHOS) and we finally went into the theater.
the wallpaper in the theater scared me. you know theres this howeird lady character, whose eyes are SO humongous they look like they can eat you up. HAHA. so screamed and gasped really loudly, but i dont think either cass or jer noticed:D WELL. the movie started in a while. it was quite okay, but i think jerlyn was shivering cos she didnt have a sweater-.-" and even before the show started, we ate like half the nachos already, and jerlyn was like protecting the nachos by covering it and saying "aye, later movie start then no more already." LOL! typical jerlyn(: i think i ate way too much nachos so i stopped eating when the movie started:)
the movie was quite okay lah, more of a comedy and parental love. the funniest part was the ballet and the bathing thingo. like. who in the world SWIMS IN A BATHTUB?!lol. the whole cinema was full of laughter at these parts. looking back, i can only recall like 1/10 of the whole cinema being filled up, so you get the idea(: anyways, the movie made me thought of my dad. still feeling a lil pissed with him over the concert thing, but yeah, i dont really know him... its like always. travel travel & travel. sad.
after that, after some blocking-the-way-as-usual talk, and took neos(: three of us were practically clueless about the neos instructions, so we anyhow pressed:) but it turned out quite okay, except our nonetheless clueless works of actions that we just smiled and smiled and smiled. haha. and i really think we were supposed to choose 4 pictures out of 6 but jerlyn so cleverly clicked "ok" when we were only done with 3. hahaha. here are the 3 neos we took!
i created the idea of adding those silly thingos on our head(; jerlyn gets the superman! oh and i just realised. WHATS WITH THAT CHEERY BESIDE CASS' HIPS?! and i just realised too, i look like a sprouting bean sprout with my pose-.- how sad.
i took this template with rosanne and shan before... haha,. finally know how to operate that funny jap thingo. i think theres too many stars here, and suddenly one heart POPS OUT at the bottom, with some calendar. lol!

jerlyn still in the middle-.- i never figured out why we didnt at least changed places or pose.lol! and theres still stars.. i guess i wouldnt mind.. after watching stardust!:D
anyways, after that, there was quite a long talk, or rather DISCUSSION ABOUT WATCHING ANOTHER MOVIE, we went to buy tickets for Stardust at 2. and we rushed off to the food court for lunch. randomed around in the food court, indecisive about what to eat for lunch. and cass got her beef noodles in the end and jer and i got some charsiew rice(: i thought it was quite delicious, but apparently, jerlyn seems to be QUITE complacent about it. (im being nice, arent i?*battering eyelids*) hahaha. she was like. CHOPPING BONES IN HER MOUTH CAN. the sound of the wisping noise of that breaking down of charsiew in jer's mouth's still vivid in my brain. WHO BITES THAT HARDDD!!! lol. tried hard not to laugh(: no thanks jer, but theres no need for an example for the first step of the digestive system and digestive juices and everything. HAHA. and there was some silence, with cass claiming there wasnt much to talk about. so much for the plans of catchin up-.-"
finished up the rice, and the auntie came to clean up. VERY KIND cass offered to help by placing the plates and bowls onto the tray for no apparent reason, when that auntie was trying to do it herself. man. cass has the total makings of a clean-up auntie:Dhaha. anyway,leaving jer the last left eating(so normal), somehow i thought she finished drinking her soup and when cass(the normal tissue girl) donated her tissues(PAPER) to jer and me, i *almost* flunked it into jerlyn's bowl of soup when obviously, she hadnt finished drinking it yet. and she was like. "OI!" and i TOTALLY i didnt expect it, since my brain was quite in a whirllock with the movie(still). and i started bursting out sorries, and laughed like mad. she started laughing too, but shes so unlucky. gosh, it was not a great sight. NOT AT ALL. she started laughing so hard. the air trapped so forcefully in her throat decided it wanted to gush out of the only opening available- her mouth. and you know what happened. the air SOMEHOW pushed all the rice in her mouth so mightily it TOTALLY succeeded in letting her embarrass herself, by imitating some statue of a fish at some fountain, the only differences' that the one of the fish was a NICE sight, and it was spitting out WATER, while jer's was not quite a nice one, and she was spitting out rice. RICE. i almost died. died out of cracking up. and apparently, cassandra gave no sense about being unoblivious to the enormous throttle the mighteous air had given to poor jerlyn. LOLLLL. the rice started flying out in all directions, so thankful it didnt land anywhere in my territory, and cass STILL shrieked, "ohmygosh jerlyn, SO SICK!" no comments on that. it was soooo hilarious. HAHAH. should have taken photo of jerlyn's zuo pin of spitting out "water". you'll be seriously disgusted. LOL. i really hope no one glimpsed at er. our table. haha! then we seriously rushed out of the food court.
wanted to show what a tuning fork was to cass, but the music shop we went into didnt sell it, so i guess it turned to be some real eating fork that has two teeth and apparently, gives a sound of an A when you hit it on your head. wanna try it? :D
and we rushed into the theatre fot stardust, buying popcorn(mixed, all thanks to jerlyn. i would really prefer a plain sweet one-.-) before. and sprite. which costs 80cents. anyways! lent jerlyn my sweater since she felt so cold, but i didnt feel a single bit of cold. haha. wells. the movie was quite boring at the beginning but it became nicer and nicer. it was something like harry potter, but not exactly it. i dont know. its somewhat a definite blockbuster:Dgo watch it!:D and at somewhere in the end, there was this part where the lead guy actor was running towards the rock wall to prevent the lead girl actor from stepping across it and be minimised to dust, it was quite heart-pounding, and cass and i were quite huddled up together (no dirty thinking!) muttering some nervous symptom-nonsense while jerlyn just practically sat there, with almost mouth wide open, and eyes wide. hahah.
and when we came out of the cinema, all of us were like "OMG.that was SO NICE!" hahaha. luckily jerlyn decided to watch it, if not she said she would zhuang4 qiang2. LOL.
we went to the toilet for some business(obviously) and wanted to CAMWHORE(cass) but there were so many people visiting the toilet, we wanted to keep our faces white so we decided not to(: then we random-ed a while with the shops. bought a notebook for sumei, and admired some shirts and bags. and thennn. we got some bubble tea and decided to devote some sitting time to our aching legs, but there werent any. so we resorted to some deserted stairway. not exactly, it was in the open. and we started(somehow) camwhoring! so not the place to camwhore, but who cares. we were facing the roadside for your info. all cass' idea. as usual. and before that. we did SO DAMN SILLY stuff, like playing with an AUTOMATIC DOOR, which jerlyn almost got snapped into 2 by. okay, mayb its exaggerating(:
i was laughing so hard i couldnt help myself but stagger abit with the cam, but cooled down after a while. here are the pics we took!
me & cass.first one. okay, i guess?
second one. cass usual rantings about this not nice, that not nice.
cass&jerlyn.i had to wail "can you guys get closer?!" before this product. still not so close huh? oh, and i like jerlyn's teeth(:
jer&me i look like some goose here. and i still like jerlyn's teeth

jer&cass&me i think i grinned too much, cass didnt grin too much, and jerlyn's grin..? just right?! I WANT HER TEETH!
usual rantings about this not nice that not nice by cass again. look at that bored look or jer's face already? and cass determination of photogynic-ness portrayed so well here. me? neutral:D
i think we are like some ppl advertising for the bubble teas. i claimed we look like some sick people sucking up white tubes-.- and i think cass looks squashed, pushing jerlyn away, cutting her face into half and not to forget, a hand with 4 fingers-.-
cass took over the job of that hand thingo this time. I SERIOUSLY THINK WE LOOK LIKE MANIACS.
shoes. shoes. shoes. jerlyn thought her shoe looked as if she just placed an empty sneaker there. LOL. so...
i took her legs(: with a such impressing result of that shaky leg too. happy? its attached to your leg:DDD
showing her leg...and my hp ornament kept blocking the cam so our hands were kinda entangled above the phone, which of course, cant be seen within the cam aim.
candid shot? look at cass. kissing who? and jerlyn's er. close-up view on einstein's hair(:
AND AFTER THAT. THE UTMOST HORROR. one-person's portrait! of cos, the camwhoring agent,cassandra started it, and started first. dont enjoy too much.
LOL. this one. jerlyn claims cass looks like an INDONESIAN MAID.HAHAHA. and i asked cass to push her bag away, not push it behind her. oh well. maybe shes indonesian after all. is she? :/
LOL. somewhat a reluctant shot:D but candid of course?! i still like her teeth, but this one she looks like some rat nibbing onto something.
i was forced to take this-.- but i look like some bu2zi4liang4li4 person,trying to push the wall away. and look! the door. the silly door. swinging at nothing. stupid sensor sensed me-.-
cass trying to stuff the stuffed dog i gave her into her bag. its already stuffed, why stuff it somemore!
and finally, the movie tix! the game plan
stardust:D
LOLS. then jer had to go home, so cass and i went to see her off, and then two of us went to B1 and sat down and i sent her pictures and i talked and we talked and her father said she had to go home(?) and so i went home too. quite saddening that we had to leave, imported hugs here and there! and finally parted~~~
today was such a nice nice nice day. love you guys forever!:D
and after that, i went to the mandai crematorium and columborium(?) to pay respects to my grandad. his death anivarsary. miss him.
ohwells!
i seriously dwelled like for more than an hour on this post:O

Sunday, November 11, 2007 @ 4:40 PM
*HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINE!<3

i hope that you'll enjoy your 13th birthday... and continue all your ridulous poking games!:D thanks for everything! will never ever forget you.. as a best friend and a sister in Christ!

yay man. you rockkk!:D

@ 2:56 PM
*simply nonsensical gibberishhh
ohmyyyy. now i seriously wish i had some plans during these 4 days. i think i've been wasting my time over and over again.
not like i know what that meant. HAHA.
anyway. yesterday i woke up at 10.30 and went to jalan kayu for that roti prata. not eating there before is tantomount to not having tasted good food yet! hahah. then got back home and spent my time solely on HP for i think an hour and a half and then karoake-ed. got high even though i was singing alone:D haha, maybe cos i was singing FIR's get high! ohhh welll. my bro was there looking at me as if im a lunatic, but who cares. after that went to compasspoint. went to pretty much lotsa places. my mom got us(me and sis) keychains. i seriously dont really think my hp shd rely on keychains to beautify itself. the keychains will be spoilt in the end, but anyways! visited popular. and went to sakae sushi for dinner. queued up like for 1/2 an hour:/
and i practically gobbled up my food on the table after that. and i dont know why, i kept laughing to myself. long-winded reminscence:O
hahas, and then we headed home. and i became hooked up on the comp, playing MSN GAMES WITH REBEKAHHH. hahaha. and now, i just karoake-ed and i almost slept halfway. HOHO. and then i couldnt be bothered to bathe, so here i am now. doing nothing, but crappinnn.
oh wells. i shall wait for tmr's om meeting:D
LET'S ROCK THE LIBRARY, DUDES!

Friday, November 09, 2007 @ 11:22 PM
*macs!
just had a satisfying meal of macs.. ate to my heart's desire!:D fish burger + nuggets + french fries and not to forget, CHILLI!
man, i cant live without food(:
and nothing can beat home-delivered macs. can enjoy to heart's fullest at ease.
haha, i have no idea why im posting about the heavenlicious~ snack i just had. transfat!:O oh well.
theres nothing much to look forward these days...maybe with a few exceptions like OM meetings, jerlyn&cass' outing, and sometimes choir? (oh and of cos, something else, which is arriving REAL soon! hinthint*) otherwise, its sleep eat comp eat comp eat and sleep again. not at all satisfying. and obviously, boring. im starting to abhor the holidays! okay maybe not. i hope i can start on some korean drama and get hooked on it soon so that i will go gibbering on about it for days and nights. LOL. i wish goong was never-ending. i cried more than the first time i watched. haha, maybe i become more sensible? and even karoake sessions are boring now.

so much for everyday's humdrums...

@ 8:42 PM
*dedications!
hey guys! heres one song that my so-pro senior rebekah wrote.:D all by herself! all credits go to her:)

朋友

挂在天空上的星星,
看着我们一起长大。
感情有多深,谁也不知,
就像天与地,永不分离。

感谢你原谅我倔强,
还为我慷慨解难。
感谢,是你不在乎我脾气坏,
送走我一切的孤单。

*(有你的陪伴,再加一点温柔
赶走寂寞与黑暗
有你的关怀,不断的鼓励
我的朋友,我的靠山。)

^(有你的陪伴,再加一点温柔
赶走寂寞与黑暗
有你的关怀,不断的鼓励
我的靠山,我的朋友。)

像大树无论风和雨
用温柔的手拥抱我。
像天使一般守护着我,
你是我最珍贵的朋友。

Repeat * and ^, then ^ again

我亲爱的朋友们,这可能是我其中唯一的机会表示我对你们的谢意。。。虽然我脸上的表情经常是那种闷闷不乐的表情,但这只是因为有些事,太复杂了。这并不代表我不喜欢跟你们在一起,只是我需要一段时间去接受事实,去找回原来的我。你们不用因而担心我。我不知道怎样才能真正地表达我的谢意,但是谢谢你们为我做的一切!
to 105: time flies like how an apple drop on one's head. what a metaphor. hahas. but yeah. it means we have been together as one class for one year already right? :D im sure next year's gonna be a blissful one for us(: love you guys!
and to specialities(jolene, audrey, evie, shannon, shanping, rosanne, jianing & junqi):
i have only known you guys for 1 year. less than that maybe? but it feels like i've known you guys for years(: you guys are indescribable... whenever i feel that the world's crashing down, when i think of you guys, everything seems alright already. we've been through quite a lot... all the quarrels and comforting sessions and everything else... you guys just make a difference in my life, and i really wanna thank you guys for everything! i dont know how to put this across in words.. but the most i can say is that i love you guys(: this song's dedicated to you guys, hope you like it!
and of cos! not to forget~
my darling senior-rebekah!<3 who made this song and kindly allowed me to make it public.HOHO. shes a good lyricist isnt she! thanks for everything okay(: loves!

oh my. i dont know why i suddenly feel like crying now...
but its heartwarming to know my friends are my loves(:

Thursday, November 08, 2007 @ 3:55 PM
*fundraising!
yesterday was the last day the sec ones were named sec ones. the last ever day. at least it wasnt like we were gonna part or what like the sec twos(& i foresee that all of us will be miserable when that happens), but im sure the people who didnt like 1/5 at least like it a little bit more now. right julie?:D
well. yesterday wasnt all "a rainbow" and brilliant, but we still had fun. it couldnt be compared to our choral and drama night, but it re-enacted our unity again. okay anyway. first thing in the morning i had to go for choir practice. was too lazy to take bus since youming wasnt going to as she had choral and so i took taxi:D haha. i must admit.. that choir practice wasnt so productive cos we used like 1/3++ of the time to play. esp when that xavier guy came and we were doing sectionals. rebekah amanda elizabeth and ethel were spasticing around with the keyboard(-.-") making all of us laugh. and leting was horrifically amused that her blushing cells spread themselves and she ended up with a tomato faceXD but anyway! they livened up the sop 2 spirit, at least. the rest was quite boring.
oh, and log cakes! the choristers are supposed to sell them to fundraise our trip to austria (is it?) for choir olympics next year. when i first heard those words i thought they were supposed to be lock cakes. and i was like. what the hell are those things? but when i received the email attached with all those log cakes pictures, i found out they were REALLY logs. lol! how retarded. i aim myself to sell at least 5. i hope. if you want to buy a log cake, feel free to email me at cute_mandy444@hotmail.com. if you dont want to buy, at least buy to support me and i can help you eat your log cake(:
hahaha. and then. i met ev and shan in the canteen for OM meeting. and i was starving like mad. since i was totally BROKE, i had one packet of pretzel and sandwiches for lunch. how pathetic. when the rest came, we headed for KAP. half of us were walking faster, and when jianing shannon and i forgot who flagged a bus down alr, jolene and i were still walking halfway in the middle of the bridge. and she thought they wouldnt board the bus. but THEY DID. so we ran for our lives. LOL. everyone was looking at us but who cares.
we spent like about 2h+ crapping about OM. and we only managed to finish up 1/100 of the work. haha. basically spent all that time on eating macs:D thenthen. we went to bukit timah plaza for i dont know what, becos evie thought we were going to collect our flowers there. actually planned to go rosanne's house to help her out with the sausages but we ran out of time, so we rushed to bukit timah SHOPPING CENTER at around 4.15. but wth, the flowers hadnt arrived yet. shannon jolene and jianing left halfway to get back to sch and audrey evie shan and i, of course were left waiting. just as when we were on the brink of cancelling our order, the delivery man arrived. and we had to help with the packaging. no offence, but we were the one who ordered. how can we help with the packaging?! such poor service. we looked like student helpers there ya' knw. so i stuffed all 47 flowers i ordered into the plastic bag and by the time we doublechecked everything, it was alr 5.30. took to a last minute decision of taking a cab since the bustop was nowhere to be seen.
reached ny just before 6. and rosanne reached later. how surprising! anyways. audrey and i gave some flowers to our team mates and everything and then helped out with 1/5's business. turned out that it didnt fail after all. our sausages were heavenlicious. i bought two myself(: and thats my dinner! went up to watch the first part of the performance and chiong-ed down before interval. and then gave out the roses(: hope you guys like them! since its the last day of school, i shall sacrifice my hard-earned pocketmoney and buy like nearing 50 roses. but since its so amazing to be part of 1/5, being broke is nothing. right?:D oh and thanks to shan for your choc, and julie+xy and dear audrey for your roses. LOVE YOU GUYS MANNN.
and even before the interval ended, our sausages were sold out. leaving the italian soda. which tasted quite okay too.
then it was the cleaning up part, more than half the class were alr enjoying the performance, and the rest cleaned up. but at least ev and i managed to catch 205B's performance. i think the last 4 performances. didnt get to watch 205A's! sad.
oh wells. then it was the briefing, which lasted for more than half an hour, just basically waiting for ppl to turn up. after that, shan gave me a lift home.

yeah, thats basically it. and alas, i have the rest of the week free, and i need to replenish my energy for the upcoming frantic week. hahas.
and meanwhile, i shall entertain myself with the remainders of goong.:)

2 for my darlings! love you forever & ever & ever<333

Tuesday, November 06, 2007 @ 10:25 PM
still here.
sometimes i feel that im existent to the world but at other times, i dont...
but somehow or rather, i've tried my best. it doesnt matter what happens anymore. if its meant to be like that, well i guess i will just let it be. cos i've tried everything. my anger fades most of the time, and regret sets in. so long as i've got people, everything doesnt matter anymore.
whatever it is, setbacks make us stronger, right?

Sunday, November 04, 2007 @ 11:31 PM
*tagged by christine!
i have been tagged!
Instructions
1. Do the following WITHOUT complaint.
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with; I have been tagged!

Favourites
Favourite Color: purple and pink + bright colors!
Favourite Food: i've just taken a liking to seafood, esp crabs + cereal-ed prawns!
Favourite Movie: Invisible Target + loads more.
Favourite Sport: hmm. things that gotta do with balls? (dont think off)
Favourite Day of the Week: schooldays. which means. everyday. im not a lunatic; i just love sch.
Favourite Season: winter-the best season to be emo.
Favourite Ice Cream: hmms. i dont know? dont usualy eat.

Currents
Current Mood: indifferent, depressed, a lil pissed, plus upset. (for dont know whats, as usual.)Current Clothes: oh my. this is the worst qtn to ask now?! melody's pyjamas.
Current Desktop: laptop, you mean.
Current Time: 11.36pm.
Current Surroundings: in my multi-colored room?
Current Annoyances: everything & anything
Current Thoughts: choral night and my loveliees. plus 2007.

Firsts
First Best Friend: K1(:> nicole & sharon!:D and erina in pri sch(:
First Crush: im not saying!
First Movie: hi-5?
First Lie: oh this i remember! my mother didnt allow me to eat some sweet, but i ate anyway, and when she came back, i hurriedly spat it out and stuffed it into my maid's mouth. SO UNGLAM. i dont know why i did that. but my mother got really pissed.
First Music: erm. britney spears? my maid got me crazy over her:D
Last Drink: hmm. some herbal drink?
Last Car Ride: coming back from serangoon jumbo!
Last Crush: ages ago.
Last Phone Call: rosanne!
Last CD Played: Rainie!

Have you evers?
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: err. no.
Have you ever broken the law?: erm. sadly yes?! eating in the bus and not bothering to pick up litter i've accidentally dropped. hehe. plus jaywalking!
Have you ever been arrested?: no!
Have you ever been on TV: yeah, with erina and jerlyn plus rosyth choir!:D
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: no!

Random
5 things you are good at:
1.lolling around
2.getting bored
3.spending hours on the comp
4.emo-ing.
5.pissing people off:D

4 things you've done today:
1.ate at jumbo! feasted on seafood! yummylicious!
2.tidied up my drawers and stuffed all my cds into the new cupboard.
3.slept for 14 hrs today.
4.watched tv after dont know how long.

3 things you can hear right now:
1.the rain:O
2.random dogs barking
3.the fan whizzing

5 People to tag:jerlyn, audrey, evie, shanping&rosanne, jolene?

@ 10:32 PM
choral & drama night!<3
choral and drama night was just great. uber great, no one can possibly abhor it.:D

it didnt seem quite fun at first, i still could picture my own expression when the teacher-in-charge talked about choral night. i thought it was crap, i still remember vividly! i was so wrong..
it was one of my best days in ny. totally cool! 105 was very united and it was so heartwarming to see us cheering for one another. like hugs and kisses blown plus jokes and tears of joys and sweat.
and it was so h-i-l-a-r-i-o-u-s.
before the performance, everybody was like singing to themselves, and was so nervous till there were countless hugs and we made loads of noise backstage. and when it was the time, everybody was shaking on stage, and i kept on exchanging glances with julie, who was :O:O:O at me. and i could see that jolene was shaking. haha. and we rushed like crap for the moving of props. i think it was my fault that jolene didnt have a chair for one scene, cos i asked jianing to pass me a chair she was holding and there might be a misunderstanding! sorryyyy! oh, and the last part, the frame broke. THE FRAME BROKE. and the audience burst into huge cackles of laughter, it was so embarrassing, but the rest of us were laughing like mad backstage too. even the chinese drama helpers! so we didnt bother to be organised anymore; since our play was SO screwed. and the lian ai ing came in early. so half of us were not doing anything, till the pros danced. but overall, at least the audience had hearty laughs:D

105a & b, you guys rock!!!

may the spirit live on and never die~

and thanks to the people who gave me roses!!! i absolutely didnt know that people give others roses when they perform, so when saiying was buying from beauty world, i was like . =0
anyway! i've got surprises in store for my loved ones(:

p/s. i got 3 things to add.
1. I CANT BELIEVE MY MOM THINKS IM ANOREXIC.
2. i bought rainie's new album ytd!(:
3. i officially announce myself as a blurr queen; i spent an hour searching for the OM prog bklet before dinner on the desktop, and i found it on the laptop the moment i came to the OM webby. amusing me.

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