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Wednesday, October 31, 2007 @ 7:38 PM
helpless
its becoming so much more worse than ever.. now its just like a moving picture, where things really do happen, but i just see and hear and touch, without a feeling.
i've been trying to grab any feeling i've got at every and any moment, but there doesnt seem to be any. i dont feel excited, nor do i feel sad or angry or disappointed or happy any longer. i dont get excited when im supposed to, nor do i feel happy when its the time to. i just feel like im cast into a deep sleep by unknown people, and im just moving in a dream. if this whole thing is a dream, why do things seem so perfect? i would have wanted things to turn this way last time, but now, its just... nothing.
nothing does not feel like nothing anymore. everything seems like nothing. not that i get what i just said, but seriously, its like im just my body. my soul's gone.

i emphasize, my soul's gone.

how in this world am i suppose to get it back? i think i've been keeping things too long, till i feel like bursting. its just that, its too late to let it out. there arent any people to tell. and even when i want to, i cant. its like wanting to scream, but when i open my mouth, nothing comes out.
im tired of seeking help from nothingness. im tired of all these problems. im just tired of everything.
at first i thought everything was going to be okay after friday, but i was so wrong; now i feel like im ripped into a thousand pieces, which can never be one again.

i just want this pain to stop.

is that too much to ask?

Tuesday, October 30, 2007 @ 8:44 PM
*taykewei!
i've just found an amazing singer... backup vocalist, rather. shes pretty amazing, catched every single note without anything amiss in this song im gonna upload which got lotsa semitones higher/lower(: thumbs-up!

@ 6:39 PM
east coast park!
okay so last thursday, which so happens to be family day, where everyone thought that all our parents, our uncles aunties, sibs were coming to school for some talk or anything... it turned out to be a litter-picking programme at east coast park.. =.=" LOL!

this whole thing was meant to be boring, but it turned out to be uber fun!:D yep, so all the fun started when we were waiting for the bus to fetch us to east coast park. we were all like pointing at those comfortable buses that we wanted to ride on...(as if it would fly over to us just for our service) and in the end, we got one! actually, we intended to grab hold of the back seats... but we sat in pairs in the end! then we started this ball banging thing. it sounds wrong, but i actually took the ball and smashed it on evie's head. HOHO. and we were the group who were making the most noise.. but surprisingly, neither mr tiong nor ms goh bothered to care(:


yes, right. this is obviously audrey behind the covers. prone to cam weaknesses?! and jolene and rosanne obviously are oblivious to my cam(:


same thing!

oh my gosh, i just realised i should have taken a photo of me smashing evie's head, obviously not literally... but God knows how i would have done that!

then when we reached there, we gathered and got a trash bag. the one that could fit one whole human? yeah, that one. my group consisted of jolene, shannon, jianing, evie and audrey! plus me. we collected many many surprising stuff on the beach. and mind you, its a beach. how in the world are strings supposed to be found there?


you must be wondering what in the world of humans this is. oh well, that was what i wondered at first. its the trash pack. i have no idea what that circle thingy is. and the one above is obviously a leaf. seriously. i dont think they should plant trees on the beach. its like. so extra? we're supposed to enjoying the sunshine exclusively with the demure sand and everything... yeah. and i still dont get how strings are supposed to be evident there..

anyways. shannon got herself soaked in the waters, dont know why and how. but she was stripping her shoes and socks from her feet. and all of us stopped picking litter and spent the rest of time camwhoring. the fun was just indescribable!

i stuck a leaf into the sand out of randomness.

hah, RAS!<3>
this reads: Jolene is sexy. "Amanda" is just so extra there.
happy family twin(:
happy family. i think jianing was tying her shoelaces or smth.
seashells jolene collected on the beach.
tania kahmun and ppl building a tombstone for an invisible dead bird.
our group!!!:D


perfect?
ms khoo's dog that she brought along. many people were like "OOH!SO CUTE!~" and shanping went a further step to pat its head. and it started barking. OH GOSH. puppies get the hell out of me.
there're LOADS more photos, and i just cant be bothered to post them up(:
photos can be seen on evie's blog and jolene's blog.
my favs are the jumping ones, but im so pissed with blogger for its inconvenience for putting up photos. but anyways, the photos kinda reek of failure... cos we had to jump countless times before we actually got one where we jumped simultaneously. and we did stupid things like going onto the what do you call those things? err. i think benches or whatever. one on each side, and jump towards each other. we also did that indian cultural thingy-popped our heads out on top of one another and snapped a photo!
it was the most wonderful camwhoring session i ever had(:
then, we went to have our food(mr tiong bought one super chocolatey cake!) and everything and started playing hand games. murderer and weirddd games.(which, surprisingly, MS GOH knew how to play) and back to school we went.
this 2nd last day of school didnt seem like it.

Monday, October 29, 2007 @ 7:48 PM
*extreme state of euphoria!!!
hello(:

now its like one of the one-in-a-million times when i feel so into the mood to post!;D this post is really going to be a LONG one, with lotsa photos!:D have to cover sandwich making, family day and random stuff. plus today!!!

okay, soso, i shall start with wednesday, which is LAST wednesday, of course. shdnt miss posting that day after all the fun involved!

hmm.. after choral and drama rehearsal, shanping, who was waiting for me to get to j8 to buy the food needed for the sandwich making, had to wait somemore because shannon and jolene's decisions of wanting to come along were still impending. so had to wait for another half an hour! i seriously thought they couldnt make it... but for the first time in my whole life, my instincts were wrong. this was supposed to be a bad thing, but since jolene and shannon could come, what else could beat it?:D

this is some crazy convo between jolene and me when she finished calling her mother.

me: so can come anot?
jolene: (staring blankly)
me: (0.0 look, with the message of pretty please!)
jolene: (nodding head)
me: screams of joy!
i think i jumped a hsm2 jump!!! was really very escatic and excited mannn. for once i couldnt believe my ears, or my eyes. soo. since it was already 5.30(i had that time distinct in my memory) we decided to take a taxi, because we had to wait for 1000++ donkey years if we took 156. when we reached j8, shanping and i were like SO used to the supermarket, we just grabbed stuff that we needed and took 4 loaves of bread, 1 can of tuna, (i took 4 packets of pokey for shan, shannon and jolene), apple juice for them too and of cos, TWENTY PIECES OF HAM. we were moving around like crazy donkeys that we bumped into each other, and burst out laughing. haha. miss the ol' times!and then, yeah, we took taxi to my house again.
shannon and jolene were like WOW-ing at everything they saw, and the most interesting they thought about my house (so not surprising) are the no. of maids. for heaven's sake! they are REALLY not mine. hahhaa.
but anyway. soon after they almost explored most of my house, we got to work. this so-cute jolene, she placed like SO many breads on the newspaper we were using to cover the table you know! i was like already screaming on the top of my voice, "JOLENE WHAT ARE YOU DOING!!!" i think. i cant really remember. oh yeah, and shannon cut the bread into half until there was like one caterpillar-like hole in one of them. SUPER FUNNY!
haha. had lots of fun. we also made one special sandwich for sumei, BUT SHE DIDNT COME. but anyway, shannon also teared the cheese inside till it was in pieces. eww man. actually we made a video of ourselves doing crappy stuff and packing up, but somehow theres this stupid problem with blogger, and i cant seem to put that video up. arghh.
but anws. i got this pathetic one picture.i think its jolene. haha. judging by her long-monkey arms(:wait. or is it shannon? either one of them. or maybe shanping.aiya, i dont know!

amusing???haha.pouring all the leftover bread skins into a plastic bag. it filled 1 whole plastic bag. those who ate the sandwiches, you should thank us, for our love and sweat(: oh yeah, and we tou chi also. hahaha
oh yeah, since shannon and jolene had to go home before 8, i had to book a taxi on call, and thankfully it came in like 1 min ,and shanping and i were already gobbling our dinner up at the same time. oh, and i also rushed upstairs to get money, JUST TO REALISE I HAVENT GOT ANY!except for the piano fees. so i only had like a pathetic $2 note with me-.-" i just decided to ask my sister to take the amount of money i needed when i got back home. haha. oh yes. i also decided to follow shannon and jolene home and come back all the way home again with shanping, for fear of their inexperience. HAH, NICE RIGHT!:D
and the taxi driver was superb:D he was like any other guy teenager. even talked about campus superstar! hahaha. the whole trip took no more and no less than half an hour. and the fee was shocking. since i forced them not to pay me back, i shall reveal the price. $25.30. omg, i ran up and then i got all my coins from my money box and paid the price in 50cents. the taxi driver was laughing and i was like =.-" hahaa.
after that, shanping went back soon after.

fun fun day<3

its quite impossible to live without these people!(:

i shall post abt the other days in other posts... quite sian now. been dwelling on this post for an hour:/

Friday, October 26, 2007 @ 8:48 PM
*together hand in hand, united we stand!

it had only been just a few days... but everything happened so fast and furiously, its somehow like watching a movie, one moment a scene's there and on another its gone.

i really cant believe im officially going to be sec 2 in like 2h 2o min time. its just seems not possible. me? in sec 2?! haha.

anyways. i think i shall start posting on the events that happened today first. in that way, i've got the freshest memories of today and i can post better(:


today i happily walked into school, thinking that this day would make a difference, for it was apparently, the last day of school. (how time flies! amazing, isnt it?) and i brought the whole stack of uno cards, which i meant to play stress with evie... so. i waited for audrey behind the auditorium and when she arrived, it was nearing assembly so we waited downstairs. meanwhile, she camwhored with our legs. OUR LEGS. hahaha.

yeahyeah, soso. i went up and wanted to play stress, but THEN. chuan came in and said all homeecons rep to go clean up the homeecons room. i was already stamping my feet to the destination with celeste. and it wasnt any fun.

theres this oil bottle holder, which is SO full of oil, i had to squish the poor sponge into it, and the sponge got all so sticky, it couldnt be used anymore. 2nd choice? MY HANDS. or rather, my fingers. so i spent a whole 20 min on that stupid thing, trying to take off all the oil. irritating isnt it? but still laughed with celeste about it(: its just really stupid.

so it was 9 sharp when we finished, and i was merrily skipping to the toilet to wash my filthy oil-stuck fingers, still thinking what a day today would be, when i saw justina crying...

omg, i think that whole OM and FPS thing is making the whole level go BONKERS. its causing everyone to be indecisive, it causes FRIENDSHIPS TO BREAK. tears shed for this? no way.

the whole thing can be quite fun, but in the beginning, im sure lots of troubles will arise. and it sure did.

no sooner, its like many people were sitting around tables stuck together, like a total office meeting, screaming and wailing at one another about their thoughts. friendship affairs ; totally despicable. its really hurting to see us flinging our arms at one another, with tears dripping from our eyes uncontrollably.

and altogether, we cried. WE CRIED ALTOGETHER. and apart from that being the worst thing tht could ever happen today, it was actually one of the best. i know its contradicting, but...

have you seen any normal class cry together before?

we cry together, laugh together, have fun together, have terrible moments together.

i dont think any class would be like that.

and whats more? other classmates comforting those in doubts and caring people trying to clarify our problems.

although 1/5 doesnt seem perfect, in my heart, it already is. given all the sickening troubles to chuan ling sara and the teachers for not paying attention when we were needed to, at times like this, we really stand united as ONE class.

frankly, i was totally shocked to see so many people crying at one time, and i couldnt help myself but just cried too. cried for my life. and i really felt better after that(okay mayb not much, but a little?) to see all that ive been suffering were caused by misunderstandings. you've got so many people who care for you, people comforting you and people crying with you over the same reason. it really really really hurts me to see my very very very good friends crying and screaming at one another. even those un-prone to crying cried.
this proves how sad we are, doesnt it?
anyways, after all our clearing of caches and everything...
we took class photos! FOR ONCE. haha. let the pictures do the talking!
sitting in a circle before photo-taking!
still sitting in a circle... look at all their sian faces
my head was cut off. hah.
testing photo! everyone was like "HUH?! OI!!!"
cmon, it was only TESTING-.-"
they soon realised how impt it was to get ready even before the cam clicked!
not really ready.. see the no of heads turned... our class wasnt named a ji zha class for nothing, ya know. we've got POTENTIAL in making noises!;)
all nice and ready:D
julie must have had one of those moments which she cant help bimboing...
oh and see the heart in the middle? the love is so sweet too(:
the pulling of one another for nothingness... and "ois" were heard again. look at vanessa. looks like one of those baby plush toys!!
sitting while waiting for report books!
oh then. we went to the audi for lvl and class closure.
class montage was cool man! but i was sniffing and sniffing due to the block nose.
rosanne chong siqi passed it to me!!!
anyway, after school i went to j8 with jolene shannon audrey and jianing...
funfun&fun!
there really isnt any day which beats one when we're with our very loved friends and family, is there?
and i already miss jolene evie audrey shanping rosanne jianing shannon and the rest of our class already!!!
i'll probably post about thurs(family day-.-) later or tomorrow...
gotta tutor my bro!

@ 8:04 PM
losses.


Nobody's Home

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs,
where she belongs.

She wants to go home,
but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go,
no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside,
find the reasons why.
You've been rejected,
and now you can't find what you left behind.

Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs,
where she belongs.

She wants to go home,
but nobody's home.
It's where she lies,
broken inside.
With no place to go,
no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.

Yeah,oh
She wants to go home,
but nobody's home.
It's where she lies,
broken inside.
With no place to go,
no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside,
lost inside...
oh oh yeah
She's lost inside,
lost inside...
oh oh yeah

i've never found a song that so much portray my undescribable feelings,except for this.

Monday, October 22, 2007 @ 8:03 PM
my bro's birthday!
oh no. i forgot to post about my brother's "birthday bash". haha. anyway, let the pictures explain first.


looks like a pixie isnt it? ;D
yesyes, hes my little p2 cute brother, named bryan tan wei li(: who just turned EIGHT today.
haha. hes been ranting on and on about having a big big big birthday party, but in the end he didnt, cos of the examinations. wasted all his saliva huh, didnt he!
haha, but all the same, it wasnt what he expected it to be, not that bad.
on sunday, my parents brought us to jumbo seafood restaurant at serangoon.(near chomp chomp!)
since it was a country club, professional service was naturally provided. when we were halfway in the carpark, my parents went out including my FATHER, THE DRIVER. and then i was like coming back to my senses and then i saw an indian man coming into the car, taking my father's car. i was about to scream but then my parents beckoned me to go out of the car. and i was like. what in the world is happening? and i saw a sign "r-something service". and i was like. OH. the indian man was helping us to park our car. LOL.
then throughout the dinner i was starving so i didnt play-a-fool as much as did normally(okay, maybe not?) and nothing much happened. it all started when the two crabs in. my brother was already licking his lips. and i was like o_0. it wasnt as if he hadnt eaten for a few days right. the crabs eyes were still hanging in the air, i can imagine them clasping their claws and everything and coming towards me with their pinchers, and i'll be running all over with them chasing me. okay, whatever. yeah, and TO MY UTMOST HORROR. my brother snatched up one part of a crab(obviously) with like two hands. okay not snatched, but GRABBED. omg. how do i describe it.. OH. its like you holding on to a door knob. lol. i burst out laughing.
after that. theres this table where someone also had her birthday and the happy birthday song blasted through the speakers. and my bro looked up, and i said TEASINGLY. aiya, not yours la. haha. so bad of me right? :D but then he didnt know at all that after our whole appetizing meal, he too had his share of yummylicious CHOCO CAKE! and birthday song. his face was like blushing with redness. like red blood cells just broke out and splattered all over his face. DAMN FUNNY CAN! and the next table that were totally strangers applauded. he was like. "MUMMY! SO EMBARRASSING LEH!" i was too busy laughing, i didnt have time to clap(:


HAHA. ive finished all the funny parts. now for the rest of the pictures!



i think my sister was trying to show off her buck teeth when she doesnt even have a single one :/


it would be better if his cake was in a shape of a CRAB, wouldnt it? ;D




embarassing photo of him!(the music was blarring through the speakers at this time)




failed photo.
haha. end of story!
oh and today, (i forgot to add) shannon and audrey were wearing masks during break to scare everyone off -.0 haha.

the two idiots who almost scared me. HAHA. they were shot off by paparazzi.

TOP MODEL OF THE DAY:
YANG JIANING!
so sexy right! haha. perfect pose eh! except eh, the hand.
haha.
我想,你是不会明白的。事情不是那么简单。。。

@ 6:47 PM
crazynutter.
hellooo. today we had our first choral & drama night full-dress rehearsal!

ohh yes before that, we were all at the auditorium listening to a talk about transfats and mcdonalds-.- the video during the second hour was quite interesting at first, but turned out to be so boring, when i turned and looked around, there were at least 10 ppl sleeping! haha. i guess i happen to be one of them (: it was just too boring! no offence. even after all the horrible consequences i learnt and everything, mcs' still my no. 1 fav!(:
and then, had lunch with audrey, evie, jianing and justina, afterwhich we headed all up to class. got my costume and went to change with jolene in the sci. block toilet. and. when i saw jolene, i was like.
omg
omg
omg
omg
omg
omg
omg
omg
omg
omg
omg

AND STILL omg!!!
she looked really sexy. no kidding. NO KIDDING AT ALL. LOL! very very pretty.
& me? just the total OPPOSITE. so contrasting! i just looked too 丑. and the whole tube thing was DROPPING. furthermore, there wasnt going to be any sits for me, i had to stand and carry chairs and cups all around like some sickening duck, with "pink feathers" that is. so i had to change out of it. was on the verge of breaking down; too worried, i think. thankfully, audrey was there.<3>
soso. in the end i went up on stage with my hongzi. didnt turn out that bad after all. when the play started, we already had to stop. the teacher was nagging at us about all the co-ordination and everything. but like, come on la! how MANY pathetic practices are we given before the whole full-dress rehearsal? 1 was taken away because of LA. and the other two were close to failures. hah, but at least we managed to pass this stage, surprisingly. i guess its becos its just us isnt it? ;DD haha. havent ego-ed for so long(:
yep, but we still need to perform for that teacher on thursday. really REALLY hope we can get in. after the rehearsal, went with junqi, jolene and jianing (the 3Js) to j8. actually intended to go with the rest to beauty world to buy the props, but didnt know how to get home from there. oh, and this funny thing happened. since i had nothing to do and was to bored to just go home, i decided to go with the 3js to corro. but when we were in bus 66, our minds somehow drifted us to a land far far away, and we forgot to press the bell when we were opp corro. then jianing was like, "OMG! isnt that corro?" and i was like,"OH MY. corro! we missed the stop." and if forgot when the other 2js said -.- haha. but in the end, the next stop was like so damn far from the corro stop, so they decided to take 156 to j8. HAHA.

conclusion: do not take lan buses, which bells are so ruddily spoilt, you cannot press it at the eleventh hour.

settled!

haha. had fun today.(:


如果我早知道,我就不会参加了。参加了以后,虽然表面上看起来是个美满的结果,但是,其实,只会让我们全部很不开心,包括我自己。我以前似乎已经觉得有点不太对,但还不知道问题在哪里。这个问题呢我今天已经发现是什么了。但是,我不能说出来。我也很想跟你们快快乐乐地玩闹,但是,我可能会做不到,而且会伤害到,连累到你们。到现在,我还不晓得怎样开口跟你们提出这件事。天啊,我也不知道怎么样才能满足我自己。可能如果我跟你们说了,你们会感到很委屈,不是我不要跟你们早点说,而是我不敢,和不能说。到现在,我还没找到适合的对象说这件事。我只知道我自己的心好复杂,复杂到不能再复杂的地步。。。

Friday, October 19, 2007 @ 2:00 PM
absolutely brilliant... NOT!
missed school today... thanks to everyone who wen hou wo(:
thought that something really serious happened when audrey called, just turned out to be that today was marks-checking day. ms goh talked to me through audrey's hp. gladly, i didnt fail for any subject. at least i managed to scrape up two A1s. haha. but its pathetic. just two! aw. but anyways.
im just soooo uberr bored at home. theres seriously nothing to do. im already getting sick of harry potter and his so-famous world. and my head & heart are in a mess. the bandages on my feet arent making it any better.
oh, and i heard from sumei that i didnt get in for that psl thingy. congrats to evie, chuanling and kahmun who did(: yep, i think they did a great choice. i just feel indifferent about this whole thing. am i supposed to feel remorsed about not getting chosen? i know that im not going to get in in the first place. i knew it and i felt it.
but
people always say that "you sure can get in one la." & same for exams... "you sure get very good one lor!"
but deep down, when i know i flunked it, it really means i flunked it.
i guess, every outcome is the decision of God.

how come i've got mixed feelings now?

Thursday, October 18, 2007 @ 8:38 PM
deprived tgt with emo-ness.
its yet another time when i start becoming so emo again. you can skip this post if you want. this always happens at night, gosh. i seriously hope this is NOT a cycle.

dont know why, but i think i havent been myself lately. dont know whats wrong with my stupid feelings. (i still hadnt managed to scream AHHHH with jolene today.) theres something wrong, but i dont know what. or rather, i know what is wrong but i dont know how to let it out. im starting to feel that im going to BURST with enragement.
its just that. sometimes i go to school sad, but seeing all my darlings i become happy, but at certain parts of the day some sudden sad memories come flashing back in my mind, and i'll be emo and stay quiet and do whatever that is so not me again. i dont think theres anyone like me 心事重重. tried to have faith in myself but i just cant help to chase those stupid feelings away, literally. if there had been once when i was like this, i'll still be at a lost now.
is it anger? or just plain sadness? i cant choose, neither can i see the light at the end of the dark tunnel. sometimes my hopes get high just when friends comfort me, but drive low again when no one's here. how come it seems that no one is facing the same problem as me? they're all so happy; and im getting more and more envious till maybe it turns out to jealousy and anger.
i seriously dont know what to do now. i just feel like screaming my whole heart out, nevermind the scars on my feet. i want to seek help, but i dont know how to. i dont think anything will help, since i tried everything.

what am i going to do?

@ 5:45 PM
simply exuberant.
im feeling quite high today! havent felt high in a long long long time:) this feels so great...

frankly, i didnt quite much look forward to today...cos of captain's ball interclass match and everything. yeah, but it ended up quite well. :D this was one of the ever best teams that i was in! 105 plate (a) consists of: audrey, evie, joling, saiying, jianing, chenxi & me!!! it was like, totally nothing but brilliant. we automatically had that team spirit which helped us to understand one another through actions on the court. AND THAT WAS JUST NOTHING BUT FREAKKINNN COOL. i totally didnt expect us to win this whole match... i guess its cos of everyone's hard work!(: and seeing that jolene... shes so CUTE. like jianing said, want to blow but then dont dare to blow the whistle. shes like. so lost you know. hahahaha. but then, she still supported us:D it just felt exhilarating to be with all of these people WHO ROCK MY WORLD!
the hardest team to defeat was 1/9. but had a great game. it just seems so funny now; we were a head shorter than any and every of them but we still managed to tie. hahahha. okay maybe not me, but audrey evie jianing and saiying, and chenxi right? cant remember la. but they did a really good job! ohohoh. and the most fun to play with was 1 11. they were nice people. werent as rough as others. but still quite rough. aiyah, im contradicting myself. whatever! but they were really nice people. and i made a friend from 101 i think?! i just merely said a "hi" to her. lol!
now i look at the netball court with a different impression. it was where we showed team spirit and fought together, standing by one another. its really irreplacable, i guess. (:
1/5 rockkkkksssss, forever & ever. *

although today was like more than fun, my feet hurts badly. felt a slight pain while playing at the court, but thought it was nothing. i was so wrong! by the time the first round ended, it started to sore. still i didnt care. HAIYO. its like. below the big toe of both my feet. you know the part ther? oh and when i was playing the finals. the pain got was and it became excruciating. i was stupid; i thought it was NORMAL to have that kinda pain. so i still didnt care. although i was limping already. after i went with evie to the toilet to change into our hongzi, and was running up the stairs into m301, i was telling all about the pain to leting, and i found out there were two large blisters, which took up the WHOLE space of the space below my big toe. the skin was already peeling! yucks man. fortunately there wasnt any blood. couldnt run much already after that. audrey and evie gave me four plasters where i pasted on the wounds in crosses.
to make it so much worse, it was raining on my way home. seeing that the sky was overcast, i decided to take the route through the overhead bridge and take 854 instead of going the long way, to the rosyth bus stop. and by the time i was crossing it, it was drizzling. the rain got so heavy when i dropped off 854 and water was seeping in my shoe. no kidding, the wind almost blew my bigbigbig umbrella away, i had to pull it down, and suddenly when i was walking halfway, the pain at the back of my feet was already unbearable. when i finally reached home, my mum told me to soak my feet in hot salted water, which meant that i HAD to take out my plasters. i was yelling when i placed those poor feet in the water. ITS SALTED. SALTED so much for that,. and i stil had to bathe. which meant even more pain.

today is such a painful day. cant even walk properly now. how do i run in sch tmr?

Wednesday, October 17, 2007 @ 10:47 PM
underestimation
doing some quiz again. FROM JERLYN LIN



1. The person who tagged you is : myself?! oh gosh. this is stupid. jane then.



2. The relation with her is : exclassmate. good friends. (:



3. 5 impressions you have of her :humourous sicko. and nicenicenice friend.



4. The most memorable thing she has done for you : hmm. PLAYING PRANKS ON ME. EG. THROWING MY STUFFED TOY DOG PENCILCASE ARD IN CLASS.



5. The most memorable words she has said to you :"BARN TAN WEI MOOONNNN."



6. If she becomes your lover, you will : not be able to live.



7. If she becomes your lover, things she has to improve on will be: stop being so smart and attend mental treatment.



8. If she becomes your enemy, you will :get kicked out of ny.



9. If she becomes your enemy, the reason will be :laughing too much becos of her jokes



10. The most desirable thing you want to do for her now is :?



11. Your overall impression of her is :laughy laughy and girly(:



12. How do you think people around you feel about you?eh. dont know?



13. The characteristic you love about yourself is :starin into space



14. The characteristic you hate about yourself is :Too naive(liker jer(:)



15. The most ideal person you want to be is :just myself.



16. For people who care and like you, say something to them :God blessed me with you guys. love you!



17. Pass this quiz to 11 people that you wish to know how they feel about you :

1)Christine

2)Cassandra

3)Wanqi

4)Evie

5)Audrey

6)Jianing

7)Jolene

8)Shannon

9)Leting

10)JANE!

11)chuanling


Who is no.6, Jianing, having a relationship with??? no one, i guess;D

is no.9, Leting, a male or female?Female


If no.7, Jolene, and 10, JANE are together, will it be a good thing? seriously. they're really compatible; but it would risk a dead end to the whole world(:

What is no.2,Cassandra, studying?Same subjects as I am.

When was the last time you had a chat with no.3, wanqi? some days ago? lazy to count(:

What kind of music does no.8, Shannon like? no idea.

Does no.1, Christine, have any siblings?Two older bros. (:

Will you woo no.3, Wanqi? No!


How about no.7, Jolene?N-o

Is no.4, Evie single? Guess so!!!XD

What's the surname of no.5, Audrey?Lim.

What's the hobby of no.4, Evie?Dancing and tennis?

Do no.5, Audrey Lim and no. 9, LeTing, get along well?They dont know each other.

Where is no.2, Cassandra, studying at?St nickks.

Say something casual about no.1, Christine. No1 poker in the world.

Have you tried developing feelings for no.8, Shannon? for a friend, duh.

Where does no.9, Leting, live?Somewhere in Singapore.

What colour does no.4, Evie, like?Blue and black?

Are no.5, Audrey Lim, and no. 1, Christine Tan, best friends? They don't know each other.

Um...Does no.7, Jolene, like no.2, Cassandra? they seriously dont know each other. maybe if they knew?

How did you get to know no.2, Cassandra? We were in the same class since p2-p6

Does no.1, Christine Tan, have any pets?Rabbit and hamsters!

Is no.7, Jolene, the sexiest person in the world? LOL. maybe;D


finally finished!

Monday, October 15, 2007 @ 3:27 PM
sophisticated.
was SO lazy to post ytd, indulged myself into maplestory. hahaha. just revived my whole new character(which was hacked by my BRO). havent cherished maple like that in a long long time!



anyway. oh yes. on saturday wanqi called me and asked whether i could go out with her. she felt really bored. (like this is happening to everyone of us here?!) yeah. but my mum didnt allowed me so she spent the whole afternoon at my house! spent like half of the afternoon watching xue zhi nv wang, but apparently, it was so laggy until we didnt feel like watching it anymore. so. i sorta crapped with her through that piano and then we talked all the way till 6... and my parents came to fetch us all for dinner at my relatives' house. actually, she expected to join some mahjong game but there were no places. so my parents brought us to xin wang hong kong cafe at kovan, where we ate our 2nd dinner. it was frantically COOL. all the foods were like humongous, and yeah. haha. here's a few pictures!




this is something i ordered. some red bean ice kachang thingy. its so big the ice cream at the very top was touching my nose.haha! oh and thats wanqi's finger. the hole in the "mountain" looks like a shan dong, doesnt it?



its just for comparison. the size of my handdd!


grass jelly drink(:


oh look. thats the bigbigbig tofu my mum ordered. she thought it was those kind of sakae sushi tofu; the size of a thumb. this is like almost the size of my sister's arm!!!


oh look. this was what wanqi ordered. she was laughing at me and i turned into laughing at her when this thingy came.:D



no one eats watermelon like that!


looks like a volcano, doesnt it!


okay thats me. i felt like i was plucking meat from a rotten coconut.


close-up view?!?!


yucks. looks like atlantic under water.



aftermath of the tofu. I SO PITY IT!

this-wanqi's work.

she destroys it like this.



my work(:

haha. doneee! this is some stupid clip of wanqi playing with the red beans.

i just so love wanqi!(:

Friday, October 12, 2007 @ 11:03 PM
*perfection-asking for the impossible
just came back from mavis! ok, maybe not just, but whatever. yeah. today mr sany's class was hilarious. still managed to become a "joker" with a small class of a perfect 10. haha!
yeahyeah. totally screwed up for everything. and i was still squashing xingying's hands. haha. hope the bones in there wont break:D seeing so many people cry today... i hope that they would be okay soon and just work harder! cos im sure they're smarties(: except me la duh. i still dont know how i managed to even pass all( after the last min studying, that is! ) well, theres still LA geog and history. God bless~

if you wanted to know why it came out to be like this, reflect upon our past images. nevertheless you'll still be in my <3!

Thursday, October 11, 2007 @ 9:59 PM
quizzie from christine!;D
Quiz from CHRISTINE!
:Seven things to be done before my death
`make sure that everyone around me is happy-including my friends and family!
`thank God for giving me a chance to live and pray to Him!
`gatherings with 601 and 105!
`WATCH THE SEQUEL OF GOONG, PLEASE!
`go out with mates i didnt even have a chance to go out with. eg. 601ners! & onefivers(:
`attend church!
`read the whole series of harry potter.
oh my goodness. i actually wrote goony stuff. ran out of pts!;D
Seven things I will not do even if it kills me
`betray my friends
`sacrifice people for my own sake
`kill anyone!
`steal and rob. and yeah, you get the picture!
`porn(same as chris!)
`taking drugs!
`smoking
Seven things I do when I'm away from public
`sing. and experiment with all singing skills and mimics. HAHA.
`grin at myself(:
`laugh at myself
`cycle in the air
`roll around in bed
`dance anyhowingly!
`cry
Seven favourite sentences/quotes
`It is not what you have in your life that counts, but who you have in your life that counts
`whatever lah.
`cheh!
`where got lor.
`lalalala
`sharpay's memememememe and MAH!
`gabriella's meaningful words when she was scolding sharpay in hsm2.hah.
Seven things I'll make you wish you didn't do
?
People I love:
`Jerlyn
`Cassandra
`Christine
`Evie
`Audrey
`Jianing
`Wanqi
`Jolene
`Shannon
`JunQi
blahblah.

oh and i cant believe christine watches HANAKIMI!

@ 9:28 PM
*flamboyance
heyheyheyhey!
just came back from ms teo's tuition. already started on sec 2! quite difficult. but the class was PATHETIC can. there were only like 10 ppl attending. hahs. but it was quite fun. oh! and she gave us a crossword puzzle which has like sixty hidden MATHEMATICAL TERMS. so hilarious man. mr tiong would surely love that to bits!
we got back chinese results today. i practically squashed xy's hand bones. haha. but at least i passed. and i sucked. BIG TIME. so unlucky can. joyce got like FULL MARKS for zong he tian kong! my goodness. deity!
hahh, i dont really know what to say now, but i think i've taken a liking to jianing's cheeks! so cuteeee.
im becoming more and more random.
another deathday-tomorrow!

jerlyn's keyboard is currently spoilt. shes talking ancient greek!

Wednesday, October 10, 2007 @ 10:33 PM
the phenomenon
i seriously cant take it anymore.

at first i was SO in the mood to post and be happy about every single thing. but thanks to you, you spoilt the WHOLE damned-mood. here i am, trying to be understanding about your actions and contradicting myself by telling myself "i'm wrong i'm wrong" and feeling remorseful. at least you've got each other, and i've got no one at all. now even she wont want to listen to me. i thought that my life was lit up by some miraculous bright candle in my whole of darkness but now i just feel like cracking myself up into pieces.

thanks a lot to you. you made my day.

@ 5:18 PM
~the evolution





just some pictures about yesterday;s outing! oh gosh i am so freakkkiiinnnn pissed about blogger. it just DELETED MY WHOLE POST like i wrote for 10 min! ughhh. so i dont bother to talk about yesterday's outing in FULL details anymore. you guys can view it from here. kind evie posted about all parts of yesterday's outing!
ha. anyway. everything's so different now. i can sleep for like a whole half-a-day and not getting scolded. slept at 11+ ytd and woke up at 11+ today. isnt that supposed to be cool? haha. and ive been on the comp since 12+ until now non-stop(except visiting the toilet, of cos) im so going to recur my losses of not touching the computer since like i dont know when. but now my first priority is computer. (i guess!) bizarre, isnt it?;D it's the evolution.
i dont feel like going back to school tmr, because it means death. we're gonna get back our EOYs scripts! but i guess i'll just keep having faith in myself (learnt from evie!)(:
oh, and i just changed my blogskin and URL after 5hrs of decision. great accomplishment,isnt it?
as for now, im just going back to goong...
i just absorbed the meaning of family's love<3

Tuesday, October 09, 2007 @ 10:00 PM
this is realy a time to be celebrating cos exams are finally over...
but somehow im not... i dont know why!

i'll probably post about today's outing with evie audrey and jianing<3 tomorrow.. lost all mood for comping, been youtubing too much(about GOONG<3)

why do YOU always have to blame me for everything that is happening?

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