yeah. i've just been reading jerlyn's and kaikai's blogs-my two lurvees! (: cant believe that my juniors actually bring hps to school and still take videos of MY bailaoshi?! like HELLO?! to whoever that person is, the school rules are written down CLEARLY in the handbook. NO HANDPHONES ALLOWED. hurhs. what jerlyn said is TOTALLY true-times have changed. its in the year 2007, and im like only p6 last year... NO ONE has ever done this kinda thing in my whole entire life.. i mean. PRI SCH life la. sec sch-:x still, please respect yourself because you're a rosythian-at least respect your fabulous school. cos, its the one and only ROSYTH,.

i just feel tired of ALL aspects of life.

im just so puzzled-just so puzzled to know how good my seniors sing. to hear how fabulously fabolous they sing. how they've gone through their life in nanyang. how they actually SURVIVE. i just finished reading jac's and jiamin's blogs... seriously. i didnt know their blogs even existed. even the nyc blog?! oh gosh. all from becky's blog la(:

oh but. how do THEY actually survive in nanyang? im in sec 1 and im almost dying here. what will it be like in sec 4? tell me about it. its like im immersed in a sea of question marks. yes, i can admit im always avoiding LIFE questions like these. seeing all the sec 4s, i wonder and wonder. but i believe. my 4 years, no, 3 1/2 years will be a promising one. with the absolutely WONDERFUL seniors i have with me(: be it sec 2s, sec 3s, or sec 4s, EVERYONE. even my wonderful sec ones. they guide me through, not just through choir, but my life, my passion towards singing. for once, i feel as if my choirmates are my one and only soulmates, who understand me, understand what im doing, understand my life, my everything. FOR ONCE. i've never felt like this before. no offence, but this feeling has never evoked me in rosyth choir. :/ but anyway! its like. for the recent choral competition, everybody ( as in onefivers) has been like. "oh! you sing so good lehh!" "wah! you sing very well leh!" okay, these may not be the exact words. but still. im like NOTHING compared to jac jiamin tiff etc.?! like squashed peanuts to peanut butter?! "aiyah,dont worry la. the AIR will be gone once you reach sec 2."the seniors say. nah, i aint convinced. my voice has been DOWNGRADING since. um. i dont know. but! the high notes. THE HIGH NOTES. i feel like digging them out with my bare hands from my stupid throat. in choir. the notes like high A, which i used to be able to sing, I CANT EVEN REACH THEM NOW. i dont feel like i belong to choir anymore. i've lost my confidence:( but. ever since the recent NJC concert, i've felt closer to choir. the bonding between myself and the whole of the choir gave me back my confidence. there, right up on the stage, i've been able to show my passion for singing. the first time in my whole entire choral life, i enjoyed myself up on stage. well, i guess i've felt the same way when it was syf in pri 4, like 3 years ago. but ever since the syf in 2006, i was sure that i will never get that extremely wonderful feeling back again. but. this proved me wrong. at first, i was thinking that choir was not fun AT ALL. all singing singing singing, all AHH AHH AHH. i even had doubts about putting choir as the first choice. if i could turn back time, i promise i will slap myself. but MOST fortunately, i didnt put it as second choice. i hate myself for having doubts about choir. cos now, i feel it is the bestestly bestest bester best thing on the whole of mama earth(:

talking about this, i really feel blessed to have such many nice nice nice seniors around me. pple like rebekah, amanda!, jiamin, tiffany, yingting, terri, okay, maybe the WHOLE CHOIR. although they are not close to me, im very happy to say they have made singing a very important thing in my life. never, never am i going to say that choir is boring, ever again. cos i repeat. i feel it is the bestestly bestest bester best thing on the whole of mama earth.

i feel like being in nanyang choir is the best accomplishment i've made. cos ahead of me, is the bright road filled with a myriad of colours, flying notes, beautiful scores. i once regretted being a choir member, but now i am not regretting, and in future, a definite will-not regret.

and talk about the yuan fen we have between us-the choirettes.
i was in suntec city for this stupid pc fair ( no offence, im a person who really HATES crowded places.) which my mum dragged me to. and i was just thinking of tiffany of the card thing, okay fine. i was thinking about it for three whole days. and i was just picturing her on the escalator behind me. and i turned in front. and when i turned back, KABOOM! it was her there. i was like. OH MY BLOODY GOSH? she looked surprised to see me. i couldnt picture her man. i stood rooted to the ground, staring at her, like a complete idiot! i wasnt even aware that my family was already walking-away. i forgot to say hi to her. or did i? forgot. and i just ran away like that. LOL! i spent the whole of the walking through the fair thinking about this, and kept saying like "i cant believe that i saw my choir senior leh!" to my mum on that day and the following day. believe me, you would have wanted me to die.(: i said it so many times my mum got so fed up that she avoided me wherever she went. i mean, for a while. Haha! but isnt it just so, amazing? yes, i know it is(: count the incident when sheryin and i bought the same courtshoes! yeahyeah.

and yet another post.

ahh. waiting for youtube to load. so might as well post!(:

ytd was the njc performance at vch. woke up at 9.30 (SUPPOSEDLY 9) then slacked and ate breakfast till 11+... then i did math(: did the whole of the first page till 12! and mum was like. "everything needs to be ready by 1.45" so yeah. bathed and everything and ironed my gown. and then. my mum put make-up on for me can. make me look like someone who is not me..?

and when i got to vch. NO ONE actually had make-up on alr! and this manda lam la. keep on laughing at me! smacked her(: HAHA. but she let me hide behind her back.LOL. leting kept on laughing at me. whatever! and then after singing strauss, choir had sectionals and the sec 1s were made to practise strauss on their own. after we sang, we were like talking and laughing like madd. leting told us ALL abt her dropping into a POND with two other boys out of STUPIDNESS.HAHAHAH.was supppperrrr funnyyyy! thenthen. we went to place all our LUGGAGE in the changing rooms in vch. had a rehearsal at the stage itself then. ms lim was horrically angry can. but at least strauss was okay! then we practised at the upper foyer... sec 1s got to change their gowns first. THANKFULLY. wouldnt want to get STUCK in my stupid gown and embarrass myself! seriously can! when i was fitting in for the gown the SECOND TIME, i really really got stuck in my gown. it couldnt go up couldnt go down. DONT XIANG WAI WAI. but luckily leting was there to help me! the first two layers got jumbled up, you see. so she pulled as if im a carrot-.- okay whatever! but i didnt get stuck la! oh yes. and the SHOES. the most terrible part. i didnt know it was such a terrible feeling..? my feet kept on sliding to the front of the shoe and the shoe kept on dropping out. all of us were like cinderellas of the day. SEC ONES. and then we had lunch+dinner. was supposed to be dinner but didnt eat PROPER lunch. so... lunch+dinner=dilunch...?! WHATEVER. lined up for second rehearsal... and really. the STUPID DAMN shoes kept sliding off my legs i had to walk as if my feet loves the ground SO much. and i tripped over my gown so many timmeees. and da amanda tan! u horh. still dare to say me!:x when i was walking up the stage i was like "shiting" so many times. luckily i didnt fall off. and when i was WALKING DOWN the stage. luckily they had handrails there. if not. bye.(: make-up session came. AHA. i didnt need to put on so much! see the others suffering make me happy(((: haha. kidding! i still remembered the times when i was still in rsc! omg laaaa. SO FUN. i helped jerlyn put on white+black eyeshadow(: MDM YEONG said it was nice okay! ytd i helped shuchen put on eyeshadow. makes me miss jerlyn even more...TT
after that.we lined up at the corridor for our REAL performance. i was praying so hard that i wouldnt like embarrass myself or something. and we had massage session! haha.i throttled tiffany(: i was just playing can! i didnt mean to! SORRY! but she banged my back hard and made me seem as if im a piano! but really sorry kayy... i didnt mean to! and terri gave me a big bear hug(: tiffany didnt:( cos she didnt want to! hurhhs. baddd. but im really sorryy... i said it for like 3 times. and i lost the card terri tiff and chen si gave me. i think i dropped it at vch. :'( just cant stop thinking of this...